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May 2025 Masthead

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BOARD

 

MAYA LERMAN, CC ’27, Editor-in-Chief 

CHRIS BROWN, CC ’26, Managing Editor

GEORGE MURPHY, CC ’27, Deputy Editor

ELI BAUM, CC ’26, Publisher 

EM BENNETT, CC ’26, Illustrations Editor

ISABELLE OH, BC ’27, Illustrations Editor

SELIN HO, CC ’27, Layout Editor

DERIN OGUTCU, BC ’27, Web Editor

SCHUYLER DAFFEY, CC ’26, Literary Editor

LUCIA DEC-PRAT, CC ’27, Crossword Editor

 

EDITORS

 

STEPHEN DAMES, CC ’25, Senior Editor

SONA WINK, BC ’25, Senior Editor

ZIBIA BARDIN, BC ’25, Senior Editor

ANNA PATCHEFSKY, CC ’25, Senior Editor

JOSH KAZALI, CC ’25, Senior Editor

CECILIA ZUNIGA, BC ’26, Senior Editor

EVA SPIER, CC ’26, Senior Editor

GABRIELA MCBRIDE, CC ’27, Senior Editor

 

STAFF

 

BOHAN GAO, CC ’28, Staff Writer

MARIANNA JOCAS, BC ’27, Staff Writer

AVA JOLLEY, CC ’25, Staff Writer

AVA LOZNER, CC ’27, Staff Writer

LILY OUELLET, BC ’27, Staff Writer

ROCKY RŪB, CC ’26, Staff Writer

DOMINIC WIHARSO, CC ’25, Staff Writer

ZOE GALLIS, CC ’25, Staff Writer

MARVIN CHO, CC ’28, Staff Writer

DUDA KOVARSKY ROTTA, CC ’28, Staff Writer

PRAHARSHA GURRAM, CC ’27, Staff Writer

LUCY MASON, CC ’27, Staff Writer

ELIKA KHOSRAVANI, BC ’27, Staff Writer

NATALIE BUTTNER, BC ’27, Staff Writer

MICHAEL ONWUTALU, CC ’27, Staff Writer

HANNAH LUI, CC ’28, Staff Writer

SARA OMER, CC ’28, Staff Writer

NNEMA EPEE-BOUNYA, CC ’28, Staff Writer

CAROLINE NIETO, CC ’27, Staff Writer

GRACIE MORAN, CC ‘25, Staff Writer

 

INES ALTO, CC'28, Staff Illustrator

BEN FU, CC ’25, Staff Illustrator

JORJA GARCIA, CC ’26, Staff Illustrator​​

PHOEBE WAGONER, CC ’25, Staff Illustrator

OLIVER RICE, CC ’25, Staff Illustrator​​​​

FIN STERNER, BC ’25, Staff Illustrator​​

JACQUELINE SUBKHANBERDINA, BC ’27, Staff Illustrator

EMMA FINKELSTEIN, BC ’27, Staff Illustrator​​

LULU FLEMING-BENITE, BC ’27, Staff Illustrator​​

EMMA FINKELSTEIN, BC ’27, Staff Illustrator​​

ETTA LUND, BC ’27, Staff Illustrator​​

JUSTIN CHEN, CC ’26, Staff Illustrator

AMABELLE ALCALA, CC ’28, Staff Illustrator

IRIS POPE, CC ’28, Staff Illustrator

KATHLEEN HALLEY-SEGAL, CC ’28, Staff Illustrator

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Table of Contents

​Letter from the Editor by Maya Lerman

Bweccomendations by The Blue and White Staff

Blue Notes

The Violence of Indifference by Cecilia Zuniga

What's in a Name? by Lucy Mason

Campus Reruns: Columbia Unbecoming by Praharsha Gurram

Special

Senior Snacks by The Seniors (duh)

Essays

The Eden Keepers by Hannah Lui

Fieldschoolphobia by Marvin Cho

Views from the Law Bridge by Natalie Buttner

The Technique of Living by Marianna Jocas

Feature

GSAS Blues by Anna Patchefsky

The Room Where It Happens by Schuyler Daffey

Literary

high mass by Ryan Crawford

Diving Into The Wreck, Again (Responding to A. Rich) by Elika Khosravani

Campus Character

Oscar Luckett & Rohan Mehta by Sona Wink​

The Conversation

Casey Blake by Sona Wink

Sophie Kemp by Joshua Kazali

Humor

Dear Students by Ava Lozner

Cover by Emma Finkelstein and Jacqueline Subkhanberdina / Centerfold by Phoebe Wagoner / Comics by Ines Alto and Isabelle Oh / Postcard by Jorja Garcia / Insert Illustrations by Justin Chen / Crossword by Lucia Dec-Prat

Letter From the Editor

The word “university” derives its origin from the Latin word for “universe.” Grandiose as this etymology may seem, I think it gets at something fundamental about the Columbia experience. University life feels all-encompassing: Our days are spent confined to a six-block campus, hanging on to a professor’s every word or agonizing over final papers. It’s where we’ve found enduring friends, lovers, and mentors, developed lifelong passions, and radically transformed from the selves we were when we arrived. 

 

On one hand, this vision of the university-as-universe reminds us that our community contains multitudes—a self-sustaining whole made from the sum of infinitesimal parts. Immersed in this shared world, we find significance in the mundane: Hannah Liu admires simple beauty in her ode to campus trees, while Marvin Cho is inspired by peers and professors to rediscover his passion for archaeology. Turning to the “Core” of our universe, Lucy Mason interrogates a seemingly trivial change to the title of a required freshman course. Schuyler Daffey investigates the opaque yet crucial processes behind the allocation of club funding, while Anna Patchefsky explores the politics and implications of cuts in Ph.D. admissions.

 

Yet it seems gravely erroneous to take this universe of ours—no matter how totalizing it may feel—to be all that there is. The vastness outside Columbia’s gates reminds us that our universe is, in fact, very small. 

 

I’ve been thinking about Columbia’s now-closed campus; how the already sparse entrances grow fewer as months go by. This issue, our writers show that the outside world cannot be neatly relegated by a swipe-access checkpoint. Praharsha Gurram remembers how external criticism of Columbia professors paved the way for the current attacks on the MESAAS department. Reflecting on the changing nature of campus activism, Natalie Buttner describes small slips of paper with the names and stories of murdered Palestinian children tied to Columbia’s Amsterdam gate—the wider world pushing back against our fraught borders. Cecilia Zuniga urges us to be moved by these stories in her reflection on last spring’s encampments. 

 

Columbia is certainly an imperfect universe. Still, the thought of leaving this world we’ve inhabited together is a bittersweet one. In their last Blue and White issue, our seniors savor the flavors of their favorite Columbia memories in poignant vignettes. Likewise, senior Sona Wink pens a heartfelt tribute to two friends who have been an integral part of her college experience. 

 

As we say goodbye to our seniors, we should remember that the world does not end beyond the gates; that a grander universe awaits them. Still, they’ve certainly left their mark on our little world: Like Marianna Jocas stumbling across the archives of alumni magazines, future generations will inevitably discover, and find inspiration in, the words and illustrations our seniors have created for The Blue and White. If they ever find themselves back in Columbia’s orbit for a visit, I’m sure they’ll bring us back some nuggets of wisdom from the multiverse. 

 

Maya Lerman

Editor-in-Chief

Bweccomendations
Media we think you would enjoy — but likely not as much as The Blue and White Magazine

Maya Lerman, Editor-in-Chief: Elias Khoury, Children of the Ghetto: My Name is Adam. Ann Carson, “1 + 1.” Punishment Park (1971)

 

Chris Brown, Managing Editor: Spillage Village, Bears Like This Too Much., Oh! Great, Air Gear. Robbin Kelley, “Comrades, Praise Gawd for Lenin and Them.” The White Stripes, “Fell in Love With a Girl.”

 

George Murphy, Deputy Editor: Shuntaro Tanikawa, “Two Billion Light Years of Loneliness.” Hilda Doolittle, “Night.” Mahmoud Darwish, “Rita and the Rifle.”

 

Eli Baum, Publisher: Jehle and Reny, Advanced Microeconomic Theory, Chapter 7 (particularly the part on Games of Imperfect Information and Subgame Perfect Equilibrium).

 

Isabelle Oh, Co-Illustrations Editor: Joan Didion, The Year of Magical Thinking. Clairo, “Impossible.” Judith Butler, Precarious Life.

 

Em Bennett, Co-Illustrations Editor: Taking Back Sunday, “You’re So Last Summer.” Eiichiro Oda, One Piece. The Eras of Trish Tour.

 

Selin Ho, Layout Editor: Asumiko Nakamura, Doukyusei!!!

 

Derin Ogutcu, Web Editor: Fugazi, "Arpeggiator - Demo."

 

Stephen Dames, Senior Editor: The Mets. Getting out while the getting’s good.

 

Josh Kazali, Senior Editor: Sophie Kemp, Paradise Logic. The Pacific Ocean. Sunflower seeds.

 

Gabriela McBride, Senior Editor: The Shaggs, Philosophy of the World. A visit to The Interference Archive. 

 

Anna Patchefsky, Senior Editor:  Paul Simon: Under African Skies (2012). Clementines. 

 

Sona Wink, Senior Editor: Franz Schubert, 6 Moments Musicaux, Op. 94. Newborn leaves. Pumpkin seeds. 

 

Cecilia Zuniga, Senior Editor: Alice Coltrane, “Going Home.” Saiguette takeout. Giving a fuck.

Natalie Buttner, Staff Writer: Josh Ritter, “The Curse.” Lindsey Hilsum, In Extremis. Crabapple Trees.

 

Marvin Cho, Staff Writer: Umberto Eco, The Name of the Rose. Chalance.

 

Nnema Épée-Bounya, Staff Writer: High Fidelity (Hulu). Sinners (2025). Lorde, “Stoned at the Nail Salon.”

 

Zoe Gallis, Staff Writer: Mikey and Nicky (1976). Joanna Biggs, “Jealous Laughter.” The Rolling Stones, “Wild Horses.”

 

Praharsha Gurram, Staff Writer: Porco Rosso (1992). Rohinton Mistry, A Fine Balance.

 

Marianna Jocas, Staff Writer: Johnny Cash, “The Ballad of Boot Hill.” Skinny-dipping, and eating peaches after.

 

Elika Khosravani, Staff Writer: Natalia Lafourcade, "Hasta la Raíz." Georges Perec, A Void. Glitter tattoos.

 

Duda Kovarsky Rotta, Staff Writer: David Bowie, “Word on a Wing.” Virginia Woolf, “Modern Fiction.” Gagacabana. 

 

Hannah Lui, Staff Writer: Lous and The Yakuza, No Big Deal. Sublime, “What I Got.” Richard Siken, “Litany in Which Certain Things Are Crossed Out.” Bortkiewicz piano music.

 

Lucy Mason, Staff Writer: Papal gambling. 

 

Caroline Nieto, Staff Writer: Allegra Krieger, “Living in the City is so Beautiful.” Sonic Youth, “Massage the History.” The Clientele, “My Own Face Inside the Trees.” Sitting in the sun.

 

Sara Omer, Staff Writer: Nanon Korapat, “B612.”

 

Michael Onwutalu, Staff Writer: Bonjour Tristesse (2024). The Beaches of Agnès (2008). Steve Hiett, Down on the Road by the Beach. Lorde, “Oceanic Feeling.” Anthony Haden-Guest, “Jockey Club of the Apocalypse.” “Fuck Anyone Who’s Not a Sea Blob” (14:21), Euphoria (HBO). Jacques-Henri Lartigue, Bretagne, 1960.

 

Lily Ouellet, Staff Writer: Men I Trust, Equus Asinus. Wednesday crosswords.

 

Rocky Rūb, Staff Writer: Entertaining starting a Substack and exposing (or supporting) scammers. Lorde, “What Was That.” Overcompensating (PrimeVideo).

 

Ines Alto, Staff Illustrator: “Abstract,” Adventure Time (Max).

 

Justin Chen, Staff Illustrator: Franz Kafka, The Metamorphosis. Dora Jar, “Lucky.” Family Guy (Hulu).

 

Lulu Fleming-Benite, Staff Illustrator: Growing out your hair for the summer so that you can cut it again in the winter.

 

Jorja Garcia, Staff Illustrator: The Wedding Banquet (2025). John Proctor is The Villain, Kimberly Belflower. Sketching trees in Riverside Park. Making and breaking piñatas. 

 

Iris Pope, Staff Illustrator: The Righteous Gemstones (Hulu). Michel Colombier, “Mistress Arrives.” Thai lime and chili almonds. 

 

Oliver Rice, Staff Illustrator: Absolutely no work after dinner.

Jacqueline Subkhanberdina, Staff Illustrator: Gigi Perez, At The Beach, In Every Life.

The Violence of Indifference

The Encampments film and the dangers of the past tense.

By Cecilia Zuniga

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Illustration by Etta Lund

I am standing at the edge of Columbia’s South Lawn as a riot-geared battalion of NYPD officers floods the gate. Their boots hit the ground in lockstep, and we watch as they begin to peel students off the grass. Tearing apart linked arms, smug faces in uniform indulge in their own spectacle. One by one, our friends are zip-tied and dragged off of the lawn. Guttural screams begin to swell, and I taste hot, salty tears streaming down my face. There is an officer standing directly in front of me, refusing to look me in the eyes. We take a deep breath and flood the West Lawn. 

 

A year later, I am sinking into a polyester cushion, rewatching this scene at the Angelika. A wide-pan shot encapsulates the amassing crowd of students, as an orchestral composition overlays the scene of arrest. The camera, however, refuses to linger. An abrupt transition brings us a shaky hand-held shot, capturing the moment Sueda Polat, SIPA ’25, calls students to flood the other lawn. An intensifying cello concerto matches the scene’s brevity; I feel people in the theater holding their breath, and my chest feels heavy. 

 

The Encampments (2025) was released in an emergency screening at the Crosby Hotel on March 21, 2025, two weeks after the abduction of Mahmoud Khalil, SIPA ’24. The 76-minute film was directed by BreakThrough News journalists Kei Pritsker and filmmaker Michael T. Workman, who camped at Columbia’s Gaza Solidarity Encampment for two weeks last spring. Executively produced by Macklemore and BreakThrough Editor-in-Chief Ben Becker, the film dissects the chronology of pro-Palestinian protest on Columbia’s campus from October 2023 through the occupation of Hamilton Hall in April 2024. 

 

The Encampments sets out to dispel dominant media narratives surrounding the protests—largely framed as violent and antisemitic by mainstream news outlets—while also centering the voices of student organizers such as Polat, Khalil, since-expelled SWC President Grant Miner, and Naye Idriss, CC ’20. It counternarrates with a poignant focus on local community and national solidarity on other college campuses, while also foregrounding scenes of devastation and genocide in Gaza. “Do you remember how that felt?” Pritsker asks during the post-film Q&A at the Angelika. “Do you remember what kind of power we wielded for two weeks? Do you remember how we made the whole system come to its knees?” His questions are met with rousing applause. 

 

Yet as I subway back to Columbia, it feels impossible to grapple with past violence when it marches defiantly into the present. I return to a Columbia where The Encampments has yet to be screened on campus, where my fellow students continue to put their bodies on the line for Palestine. Columbia remains barricaded, surveilled, and militarized—sightings of NYPD’s Strategic Response Group have become normalized. I return to an institution that feigns helplessness as our peers are disappeared by a lawless state, an institution which has taken an active role in such palpable violence. Both Mahmoud Khalil and Mohsen Mahdawi, GS ’25, pleaded with Columbia's administration for protection days before they were targeted and detained by ICE. Neither were answered, nor have their names been mentioned in any formal correspondence from the administration. I return to eerie silence and a university that funds the total deprivation and squashing of human life in Gaza. 

 

For many, going to watch The Encampments is an act of solidarity. The televised genocide in Gaza persists against the Western media’s desensitization, and the film forces its audience to confront that. Yet as I read dozens of articles on The Encampments, I can’t help but notice the stickiness of past tense, the hesitancy to say the word “genocide,” and the luxury of being a third-party observer where solidarity can be doled out at convenience. Even on our own campus, hundreds of students stand by idly as their peers continue fighting for a free Palestine, regardless of criminalization, silencing, and institutional repression. There are those who play frisbee on the South Lawn, blasting Charli XCX to drown out our chants on the sundial. There are those whose attendance at protests hinges upon the shield of the press pass, as if the veneer of objectivity somehow justifies their non-participation. There are those who watch; and there are those who resist.

 

I write to those who limit this conversation to the realm of academic freedom. To those who have watched their peers get arrested and now theorize about it in history class. I write to those who showed up to the lawns last year, who felt it deeply, and have since settled into the ease of such dissonance. Indifference, and the refusal to feel, is violence. Indifference is how the University—how any fascist entity—will win. It is reprehensible that our peers have been kidnapped for speaking out against the merciless killing of their own people. It is egregious that we pass through police barricades to get to class. And it is grotesque that we continue to watch babies being pulled out of rubble on our screens.  This institution depends upon your hesitancy to speak and your consent to its profound violence. I write in the hopes of making you wake up to the rot beneath your feet. Until then, the rest of us will make you listen. 

 

Free Mahmoud, Free Mohsen, and Free Palestine.

What's in a Name?

On Masterpieces of Western Literature and Philosophy and its new makeover.

By Lucy Mason

Next fall, Masterpieces of Western Literature and Philosophy, the Columbia Core’s year-long course studying significant literary works, will be officially known as Literature Humanities. Of course, Literature Humanities has been known as this for decades, but the coming school year marks the first time that title will be reflected on students’ transcripts. 

 

On some level, who cares? This change simply makes the fine print match reality. The course will continue as it has since its inception: A small group of first-year students led by a professor to discuss, analyze, and debate great works. Literature Humanities, a name organically created by the people who do the work of the class, reflects the humanity at the center of what this course asks students and faculty to engage with in the texts they read. 

 

However, the change does present a historical break. Literature Humanities, or as it was originally called: “Humanities A,” has always had some variation on this longer formal title. In 1937, the first year the class became mandatory for all entering first-years, it was listed in the official copy of the university registrar as “Humanities A – reading in and discussion of European literature and philosophy.” Since then, the wording has changed slightly, but the fact remains, that every year the course has been offered the title included the words “Western” or “European” as a descriptor of the content it teaches. 

 

The word “Western,” and the later added, “masterpieces” are problematic in their own right. When we assert that this course covers both the so-called “West” and what has been decided are masterpieces, a grand, inaccurate generalization is being made. What does it even mean to say “the West” or to declare a work a “masterpiece” to the world? Literature Humanities, on the other hand, maintains broadness and sidesteps the problems these two terms carry. Students will continue to read many of the same works, but the label of “masterpieces of the Western world,” and the hierarchy implied with that proclamation, is consciously removed.

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Illustration by Fin Sterner

But the Core is Western. Stripping that title from this class misrepresents the majority of the syllabus. When a person hears the word “Western,” there is a preconceived notion of what that means, and by extension, which works belong to that tradition. There is room to question whether “the West” is a useful concept, but the fact remains that when the phrase is used to describe literature, specific works come to mind. In this way, the formal title is honest to that reality. Students often critique the Core’s Eurocentrism, and while those concerns ought to be raised, changing this course title is not necessarily the appropriate way to challenge what people perceive as “the West” and the masterpieces associated with it.

 

I found out about this new(ish) course title two months ago. Since then, the words “Western” and “masterpieces” have haunted me. Part of me doubts whether people will even notice that this has happened since it has no material impact beyond a few words on future generation’s transcripts. It is symbolic, but covertly so. The Core itself is a symbol: the hallmark of a Columbia education. 


Symbols are important. They possess power, shaping how we view institutions, history, and ourselves. Changing this course title from Masterpieces of Western Literature and Philosophy to Literature Humanities is not meaningless, it reflects an effort to reconsider and to question. But at the same time, it is just a symbol. And sometimes, the power given to symbols—or taken away—does not shift the material realities they represent. The course remains the course. The work of rethinking what it means to study these works has always, and will continue to, happen in the classroom, and not on the transcript.

Calling Columbia Unbecoming (2004) a film would be a stretch; it’s more a loosely organized collection of interviews and anecdotes by Jewish students (and the Jewish Chaplain at Columbia, Rabbi Charles Sheer), alleging mistreatment or hostility from three professors in the MEALAC (now known as MESAAS) department: Joseph Massad, Hamid Dabashi, and George Saliba. It was produced by The David Project, a pro-Israel organization affiliated with Hillel, and arose out of conversations with students recounting incidents in MEALAC classes and talks between 2002 and 2004. At least six versions of the movie exist, of varying lengths, and different students included. Most Columbia students at the time probably didn’t even get a chance to watch the thing—the film was initially only meant to be shown to university officials—as screenings were private. The first screening for undergraduates was attended by over 400 students, and the Chaplain of the University even hosted a debate immediately afterwards with the audience. The film I watched, which was posted on YouTube in 2020, was likely the longest one, at 37 minutes long.

Despite being more than 20 years old, it felt incredibly modern: The focus was on highly specific and jarring student anecdotes, which wouldn’t feel out of place reformatted as social media posts. Every moment would roughly start in the same way: a student tries to question a professor on the Israeli-Palestinian conflict by bringing up a pro-Israeli perspective, which inevitably elicits a hostile response. Countless described anger and dismissiveness when bringing up a pro-Israeli viewpoint, from raised voices to jokes at their experience. More broadly, the students suggested that these professors, and the MELAC department generally, were intentionally intimidating them to silence Zionist voices in their classrooms, and turn their unwitting peers against Israel.

In October of 2004, the New York Sun would break the story of Columbia Unbecoming, by reporting that it had been screened to both Barnard and Columbia officials. The controversy would spread like wildfire from there: City politicians demanded investigations, student groups were formed in support of every imaginable position, and all three professors contested the accounts in the film, with Professor Massad being particularly forceful in his critique.

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Illustration by Selin Ho

The University, caught flat footed, put together a committee that December to investigate the claims being made in the documentary, literally named the Ad Hoc Grievance Committee. Three incidents discussed in the film would end up being the focus of the committee’s report: Firstly, a student recounted being told by Professor Saliba that they have no claim to being Semitic on account of their green eyes; secondly, a student, who had previously served in the IDF, was questioned by Professor Massad on how many Palestinians they had killed; thirdly, a student who defended Israeli actions in Professor Massad’s class, and proceeded to be shouted at and urged her to leave. 

 

In March of 2005, with over 60 interviews, the Ad Hoc Grievance Committee issued their report. It broadly cleared all of the professors: It argued that the student most likely took Professor Saliba’s comments out of context (especially considering they came at the end of a 45 minute discussion); it acknowledged that the confrontation with the former IDF student probably happened, but was outside of a class context; and it criticized Professor Massad’s decision to scream at the student in class, but maintained his general good nature towards students. As its key action proposal, it recommended an updated grievance procedure for students, so that student complaints could be handled within the university (rather than privately produced tell-alls). 

 

No one at Columbia was truly satisfied with the report: It attracted criticism from progressives and free speech advocates who claimed it didn’t go far enough in defending the three professors, along with anger from pro-Israeli voices who felt it wasn’t scathing enough in its critique. But for the most part, the controversy died down after its publication. All three professors took leaves of absence in the fall of 2005, and an Israeli Studies professorship was created in the MELAC department. Professor Massad would eventually gain tenure in 2009. 

 

Yet, for all the ways in which the report was exhaustive, it refused to speak about an essential element of Columbia Unbecoming. While watching the film, I was struck by the three moments they chose to cover in detail, but they were mainly outliers: For the majority of students involved, the primary critique wasn’t merely of hostility towards their pro-Israeli viewpoints, but a consistent bias against Israel in the first place. They were looking to address their frustration with MEALAC professors and courses they believed were misrepresenting Middle Eastern history, and peddling anti-semitism in the process. The report acknowledges this—in fact, it states that “the majority of complaints focused on what a number of students perceived as bias in the content of particular courses”—but the committee decided their “charge did not encompass the examination of such matters.” Instead, it reminds that “the adequacy of a faculty member’s scholarship and teaching should, however, in the normal course of university life, be stringently assessed by hiring and review committees,” and “the adequacy of courses and syllabi should be judged by departments and School Committees on Instruction.”

 

By all standards, this conclusion was a fair one—it isn’t the place of an outside committee to dig through courses, or faculty. But by eliding these fundamental arguments about professor bias to instead focus on moments of hostile confrontation, the report, and Columbia, was able to reframe the question: A discussion of what constitutes acceptable and factual history became a discussion of classroom management; what a professor can teach students became how a professor ought to teach students. While the university dealt with the technical issue, the fundamental problems were basically ignored.

 

And so, 20 years on, this question remains much more interesting and contentious. Ultimately, it explains the renewed focus on the MESAAS department by the Trump administration, which declared that the department was in need of an academic receivership. In retrospect, Columbia Unbecoming wasn’t merely a flashpoint, but a genuine inflection point, where critique of a professor’s political views became legitimate grounds for their removal, and content that was disagreeable to students was enough to be filmed and broadcast to the world. Our university bucked the genuine crisis on hand, which struck at the heart of what an education is allowed to be; in doing so, they merely began to dig their own grave. Once MESAAS was tinged with claims of anti-semitism, it became difficult to wash off. The second time around, the university’s defence of the department was laughable—then-President Armstrong offered to appoint a Senior Vice Provost to oversee the MESAAS department within a week of Trump’s letter. 


In an ironic twist, this decision would lead to an entanglement with Columbia Unbecoming. Bari Weiss was a student at Columbia during the whole affair: She rose to prominence and honed her political instincts on fighting anti-semitism as a leading voice for the Jewish students interviewed in the film. Currently, she is the editor-in-chief of the Free Press, the publication that leaked former President Armstrong’s private zoom meeting with faculty where she rebuked much of her public acquiescence to the Trump administration. Days later, President Armstrong would resign; the past reverberates in uncanny ways.

Campus Reruns: Columbia Unbecoming

A look back at the last time the MESAAS department was under fire.

By Praharsha Gurram

Senior Snacks

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The meals that made us.

A Slice of Life 

 

Che’ Bella Che’ Bella … How beautiful that name is to me now, even still. Once occupying the vacant storefront next to Hartley Pharmacy (between 120th and 119th on Broadway), Che’ Bella’s pizza was the taste of my childhood. Like many childhood tastes, though, it’s now only accessible in memory. 

 

The store (like its pizza) was greasy, unpretentious, and always way too hot. That never bothered me though. Che’ Bella gave me my first slice and some of my first ever solid food. I’ve been told that the pizza was good, not great, but to me—a child nursed on its grease and gravy—there was none better. My family would go and pick up pies for dinner, and I’d walk down the street carrying them, feeling so grown, so strong. Late in my childhood, I’d even sometimes go and get a slice on my own, grinning from the freedom, the indiscretion. 

It was never famous. There were no West Side Rag memorials when it closed, no bunches of flowers left on its doorstep (a la Absolute, another favorite). I like to think I remember it more fondly than anyone still alive. 

 

Living in NY—truly living here, not merely spending some time—necessarily involves this type of sadness, this type of loss. Things were always better yesterday, yet tomorrow must come. This process is how a child’s shirt covered with old grease stains becomes a sentimental possession, how a vacant storefront causes one's heart to ache when one walks past. 

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There were rumors—unsubstantiated certainly—that the restaurant closed because of an ICE raid. While that may have just been late 2016 hysteria, it feels far closer to the truth now than it did then. Perhaps it was just warning us. 

 

Bella ciao, Che’ Bella, you’re not forgotten, not by me

 

—Stephen Dames

The Apple-Eaters

 

The thing I miss most about California is the produce. Plump tomatoes, juicy mangoes, verdant lettuce, creamy avocados: this was the bounty of my childhood under the West Coast sunshine. Walking down Broadway on a cold and gray Thursday afternoon, I looked upon the Columbia farmer’s market with dismay at flaccid leeks, lumpy potatoes, and shrivelled radishes. That’s when the intoxicating whiff of cinnamon and allspice hit me, and I saw it at the corner of 114th St: boxes and boxes of apples. 

 

The Samascott Orchard apple stand is a nation in miniature, defined by a fierce and patriotic love of that Edenic fruit. Stumbling across its borders, I became lost in a sea of cultivars: Macintoshes and Golden Deliciouses and Fujis and Snapdragons and Empires and Galas. It is a proud nation the likes you can see lining up on Thursdays and Sundays with churchlike devotion. I once saw my Contemporary Civilizations professor in line, and for that brief moment, we were not student and teacher, but equals in Platonic appledom. Not even a fire which broke out on the Samascott farm this January could halt the flow of fruit—a week later, there they were on the corner again, slinging their wares for us lucky apple-eaters. Some go for the tart ones, others for the sweet ones, some for baking and others for snacking. That fateful day, I settled for a honeycrisp. It burst like a capsule upon first bite, liquid gold dripping down my chin. The best apple I have ever had. 

 

The apple stand has always been there for me: a warm cup of cider in the early morning, a cakey and sugary apple cider donut in the afternoon, and of course, plenty of apples in between. New York’s frigid winters and muggy summers, for all their misery, do bring one juicy, generous compensation: perfect apple-growing weather. For me, that autumnal treat makes it all worth it. In those moments of apple-induced reverie, I would not change my state with kings, nor for any California avocado. 

 

—Josh Kazali

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Illustration by Phoebe Wagoner

A Message from Your Sous-chef

 

This drawing is from a photo I took on July 5, 2024. This meal stands out in particular—that insane cake Elias made, I can’t think about it too much because it induces such a powerful yearning feeling—but we made so many meals together I’ve lost count. 

 

I’ve learned a lot from you in the past four years. From you I learned the gospel of salting heavy and early. Of macerating my onions in lime juice. Of infinitely elaborating on a sheet pan meal. I learned that people imbue themselves into the ways they cook. Fin is resourceful and intuitive and creative; she has a way of magically making something delicious out of ingredients she brought in a tupperware from the dining hall. Elias is meticulous and subtle and lays his dishes out perfectly, beautifully. Sona’s food is hearty and balanced and reminds me of home.

 

I am glad this is what I have to take away with me. I expect I will be cooking the dishes you taught me for the rest of my life. Thank you for these meals and lessons, and for being my friends.

—Phoebe Wagoner

Eggplant Pita

 

Not to begin with a grandiose statement, but I have to start here, because it’s a rhythm for me: that in life, sometimes, I feel I am always late. I don’t mean in the way that one struggles with being on time, I’m a reasonably punctual person. It’s more like I’m perennially “late to the party,” in a metaphorical sense. Not a feeling that usually lends itself to much joy.

 

When I was in high school I read that Virginia Woolf novel, Mrs. Dalloway. There’s a moment—or, rather, a memory, that Clarissa Dalloway keeps orbiting—of “the beginning of happiness,” a fleeting flash of perfection. “Orbiting,” because she can’t ever manage to catch it; it slips away as she tries to grasp it, and so she circles and circles again and again until all that’s left is that palpable sense of afterness that you can’t ever really get rid of, at least if you’re thinking about a specific instant, because, well, it already happened. 

 

Why has this feeling made itself most acute this last year at Columbia? Maybe it’s the nostalgia for something that isn’t over yet, but already feels distant. The ache, persistent, low-grade, for a version of time when the horizon of graduation appeared too far away to trace it. It also might be partially, I think, the feeling that now, once I’ve finally figured out how to do things in the right way in this place, it’s time to leave.  

 

There haven’t been many true “discoveries” this year, but I will say this: one of them was Zaad. It’s on Amsterdam and 107th and sort of bare inside, just the counter and two aluminium metal tables, an enframed fake ancient Egyptian papyrus drawing on the wall, a TV hanging from the ceiling with a some music video, probably of a guy singing in Arabic while Haifa Wehbe wiggles in front of a crowd. I don’t even remember why I walked in, just that I was with a friend, and, when I placed my order—an eggplant sandwich, also, is it possible to please put French fries inside?—it was funny, the man seemed startled, as if it was the first time anyone had ordered anything there at all. 

 

But it’s genuinely good “Middle Eastern” food; it’s delicious, actually. Simple, perfect. Since that day I’ve usually been a few times a week, especially if I am having that Mrs. Dalloway depressive tendency, and if the food doesn’t lift the fog, then the guys who work there, always, without fail, with that look of surprise when I come in, make me laugh. And I begin to wonder what these years would have looked like had I found this place in my first semester instead of my last. 

 

I think in Michael Cunningham’s adaptation of Mrs. Dalloway, The Hours, he reprises the famous line, but modulates it a bit.  It wasn’t the beginning of happiness, he writes—it was happiness. Maybe that’s what Zaad was, too, whether it was September 2021 or just last week. I just didn’t know it then.

 

—Lulu Fleming-Benite

The Gift That Keeps on Giving

 

I knew Oasis Jimma Juice Bar would become a refuge the moment I stepped inside and saw the walls plastered with currencies from around the world. I always find the rupiah—tattered, colorful, fragile like memory itself—and it feels as though a piece of Indonesia, and of myself, lives right here in Harlem. The tropical perfumes of mango and banana hang in the air, mingling with the low hum of conversation, and suddenly the city feels a little less foreign, a little more like home.

 

Most days when I trudge into Oasis, I am coming straight from Prentis Hall, hands raw from carving, palms dusted in the chalky remains of clay. Working on ceramics or a stubborn sculpture that refuses to resolve itself, I often leave the studio aching, defeated. The walk to Oasis becomes a kind of pilgrimage: one block, two blocks, past the cursed temptation of the subway entrance where the devil whispers, “Take the train. Just one stop. No one will know.” Some afternoons, I nearly believe him.

 

But “The Gift” is waiting. Almond butter, banana, spinach, almond milk, vanilla protein—the alchemy that stands between me and collapse. It slides down cool and sweet, each sip threading some small stitch back into me. It is not just the nourishment that saves me, but the little moments it opens: the new friends I have made leaning against the counter, smoothies sweating in our hands; the old friends with whom I've shared it, passing the cup back and forth like a secret.

 

On those rare, offshoot warm days, when the air turns soft and the sun finally finds its way between the buildings, my studio mates and I drag our tired bodies outside. We sit on a bench, smoothies in hand, soaking in the late afternoon light, laughing about everything and nothing, letting the city spin on without us.

 

What a gift “The Gift” has been.

 

—Dominic Wiharso

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Taqueria Y Fonda

 

People like to talk about snow. But when it snowed on the last day of finals there was no one else left on campus except for my roommate and I, and we had not checked the weather app in days. Out of my window, I saw the snow blanketing the Dunkin’ Donuts and the tree my roommate traced for her architecture class. I have a photo of her, standing in the middle of the intersection with a piece of paper held up to the bark; the graphite recording our home. 

 

At 108th and Amsterdam, Taqueria Y Fonda is open until 10:00 p.m. most nights.  I’ve sat at all of Taqueria Y Fonda’s tables: in the summer on the street underneath the scaffolding, on the two-top across from the cash register, and with friends near the refrigerator where they keep the hot sauce I like to put on the queso birria tacos. The restaurant has two notable postings: a Blue and White letter on the wall, and a B healthcode rating. I have never let a letter grade deter me. 

Last December, I left a blue glove at Taqueria Y Fonda. My glove though is not really a glove, it is a fingerless glove, and when I wear it in the snow, my fingers are still cold. It’s quite useless, aside from the fact that it sometimes warms my forearms which is not really something I am usually aware of being cold in the first place.

As I realized it was missing, I called the restaurant and remembered a picture book I read as a kid, Adèle and Simon. Adèle makes Simon promise not to lose anything. Simon says, “I’ll try.” He fails, and so the siblings travel from the Jardin Des Plantes to the Palais du Louvre in search of Simon’s lost items. They stop, speaking to everyone they meet on their way. A scarf, a pair of gloves, even a drawing of a cat, are left behind—momentarily untethered from their person, belonging only to the place they were left.

 

The restaurant called me back to let me know they had found my glove underneath my chair. I went out in the snow, and with a warm right forearm returned to the place I love, grateful to have left my glove in a place so easy to come back to. I will return to all those other places too, if only to pick up the things I have yet to forget. 

 

—Anna Patchefsky

Illustration by Oliver Rice

All’s Well Who Dines Well

 

I haunt Hewitt like a ghost. Gone are the days when I booked social plans for every meal and loathed to step foot in a dining hall alone. Somehow, sometime, in the past four years, I ripped off the shroud of self-consciousness and became a regular lone diner.

 

Let’s get it straight: I would rather get a root canal than sit in Hewitt’s front room. A front-room diner is forced to digest a flurry of HD-images in addition to their meal—Tim Gunn, Bobby Flay, a young chef sobbing, and, most likely, a Bad Bunny music video, all at once. Why would anyone subject themselves to such a visual cacophony? (I do, however, feel tremendous fondness for the crude, ill-conceived mural that sits next to the TV’s that reads, “Activism is about the journey, not the destination.” Legendary.) The back room, by comparison, is an oasis.

 

Sit alone enough in the back room and you will come to notice certain patterns. Two gay men (Friends? More than friends?) eat lunch every Tuesday together at the same high top. Certain familiar faces—NSOP acquaintances, lab partners, former crushes—eat alone, too. Out the window onto 116th, I have seen men unload crates of potatoes, Barnard students emerge dreary-eyed from their dorms, and herds of police officers amble towards Columbia’s gates, batons in toe. I watched trees shed their leaves, idle like skeletons, and grow hard buds that explode into green. Sitting at a low table by the window, surrounded by my fellow travelers, I have felt that odd weight of ensuing change grow in the pit of my stomach. It, like the tree’s buds, will flourish into something new, soon.

 

—Sona Wink

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Centerfold by Phoebe Wagoner

The Eden Keepers

Spring trees bloom, and my daydreams do too.

By Hannah Lui

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Illustration by Etta Lund

I spent spring break in two of America’s coldest, grayest places: Boston, Massachusetts, and the lobby of the Northwest Corner Building. Stationed in the latter for the Columbia Scholastic Press Association’s 101st Spring Convention and Centennial Celebration, I spent my days on the wooden ledge in the NoCo lobby, opening the same two doors to let in hordes of middle and high schoolers excited for their next lecture on disinformation or reporting on scandal. Between door-opening and unsuccessful attempts at writing essays, I took advantage of the floor-to-ceiling windows in front of me. I sunbathed, I people-watched, I listened to The Who. I stared out into the courtyard and watched one tall, lone tree start to blossom. The first morning, it was all sticks, stiff and standoffish in the cold. But by the end of the week, its rust-colored leaves had filled in nicely on all sides, symmetrical and sturdy. It looked like the kind of tree you would take home to meet your parents, now that it had warmed up to the idea of monogamy.

 

With spring break over, I returned to classes with a newfound awareness that each tree I passed lived and breathed, and they all seemed a little more human now. The gnarled spindle tree outside Hamilton was shy; its halo of leaves appeared to float in the air. The breathy haze hovered around the branches so faintly, it looked like a psychic had charged $10 to take a Polaroid of the tree’s aura (“Ah, green, of course … Prepare yourself for immense growth and transformation, my dear …”). I noticed the blindingly bright white blooms behind St. Paul’s Chapel, reminding me of a straight-backed and straight-A student. The cherry tree flowers on either side of Low Library were stubborn, furled, and when it rained, the weight of the droplets pleaded with them to open, but they simply would not be rushed.

 

The start of this year was an unusually frigid winter, and what has followed has been an unusually tentative spring. Months crept on, branches stayed barren, and outside was a lonely place to be. The first day it reached 70 degrees in New York, a friend and I went to Central Park to celebrate the warmth, alongside maybe every single other resident of Manhattan. No patch of grass unclaimed by a picnic blanket or a beach towel, we were all grasping onto the hope that spring wanted us just as much as we wanted it. Swaths of white and yellow tulips, my mother’s favorite flower, had been planted along the walkways, and in the sun they seemed to beckon anyone with a phone to document their small glory.

 

On our way back from the park, not because of the tulips, but maybe with them in the back of our minds, we stumbled upon the subject of our fathers’ proposals to our mothers. Both had occurred at restaurant dinner dates, and more potent than the surprise at the similarity between the scenarios was the fear that such proposals were headed our way. We each chastised our dads for picking such public spaces, so loud and crowded. From the comfortable decade-ish of distance between us and marriage, we could not imagine being observed in such a terrifying, desirous, isolating moment. My friend asked if I had a dream proposal. I did. I would be happy with anything so long as it was just me and my partner, I said—I gave a moment’s silence so we could reflect on the horror of a public proposal one more time—but deep down, I always imagine myself being proposed to under a willow tree. 

 

Then, because it felt too vulnerable to let that sit in the air, even in front of a friend, I rushed to joke that really, it could happen as I was getting out of bed on a Sunday morning, and I’d be just fine. But in my heart, it’s always the willow tree. I think of this small Eden created by a canopy of long, liquid branches, hidden away under skinny leaves—so many leaves, the weight pulls the ends of the tree down to touch the earth. I think of how we say we have so much love, we’re unable to carry it all. So much love, it spills over. 

 

We’re grateful for what we can get, here in the city. Somewhere in our minds, we know there are no trees for us to make special for the first time. They’ve all already presided over a wedding, observed a dying golden retriever on his last walk, skimmed Austen over the shoulder of a contemplative English major with wired earbuds. It’s not like back home, where the only person the mesquite in your backyard has ever known is you. Every tree here is a stranger.

 

And yet they feel so familiar. And we trust them to witness us at our loneliest. And every spring, we come back to them, the anchors for our tire swings, objects of our poems, witnesses to our lives. We might not have climbed a tree in a decade, but on a weekend trip to Boston, the whim will take hold anyway, and we’ll hoist ourselves up and watch over the park from twelve feet in the air.

 

Maybe we allow ourselves these moments of vulnerability because we know we aren’t the first person the trees have seen stand up and self-consciously try to brush the dirt from their pants. Or wipe a crumb from someone else’s mouth. Or deliver the same pickup line in front of three different girls, or twist their ankle, or journal by hand until they cry. In that way, the trees know us already. We are predictable creatures to beings that have spent centuries rooted in the earth, watching generations of artists express the same feelings in different words.

 

Last week, under the still-bare trees of College Walk, a mom sat with her toddler, playing with a plastic truck and watching the mid-morning stragglers inch towards Pupin with the unbothered acceptance that they weren’t going to make it to class on time. As I passed by, she sang, “Happy birthday to me … I’m a hundred and three!” Her son, unconvinced, smiled politely but did not laugh, and wiggled his truck toward her head.

 

On my weekly Wednesday walk to the Manhattan Ave/114th bus stop, I pass through Morningside Park. At the bottom of nearly twenty flights of stairs, if I look to my left, like I do every time, I’ll see my favorite tree in the whole neighborhood. It’s a willow tree, although no proposals are happening beneath it anytime soon, since it’s enclosed by a swamp-like lake, so green from the algae it looks dyed. From my view on the sidewalk, the trunk emerges directly from the water, like its roots are embedded deep under the surface.

 

The overflow of heavy leaves stretches toward the water with the fluidity of dancers’ arms. The willow’s reflection in the lake reaches back. Gravity begs them to kiss, but each time, they seem no closer to touching than the last. Maybe it’s the presence of an audience that makes them so shy.

 

When I finally start walking toward the bus stop again, I try to preserve the image of the lake and its drooping willow in my mind as sharply as I can, like I’m meditating. I hold it there on the 30-minute eastbound bus ride and through my shift at work. I hold it until I’m back in West Harlem, along the edge of Morningside Park again, three hours older than I was. And when I get off at my stop, I cross the street and spend just one more minute memorizing and admiring and breathing in air made sweeter by this tree.

 

Then I remember I have to walk all the way up those same twenty flights of stairs to get back to campus, and the magic wavers. But only for a second.

Fieldschoolphobia

On getting your hands dirty.

By Marvin Cho

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Illustration by Justin Chen

Scraping away at the sediment separating my excavation square from the next, time slowed to a crawl. Even though I knew that the subtlest shifts in color could indicate the ends and rebirths of entire neolithic settlements, my job of jotting down any changes in color in the sediment layer did not excite me. Blinded by boredom, inexperience, and the scorching Bulgarian heat, I could not tell whether the lumps of dirt that I so carelessly tossed into my bucket were any greener or yellower than the one before. 

 

“Marvin, freeze!”

 

I froze. All eyes at the Tell Yunatsite archaeological site shot to me. Kamen Boyadzhiev, the director of the Tell Yunatsite excavation, hurried to where I was standing. He had spotted something that had clearly escaped my notice. With ever so much caution—a far cry from my own carelessness—he reached into my bucket, filled to the brim with dirt. Cupped in his hands was a tiny, perfectly rectangular, paper-thin sheet of gold.

Considering that a similar gold object, found at the same site in 2016, had been famously deemed the oldest evidence of gold metallurgy ever uncovered, there was a good chance that this one was contemporaneous at latest and possibly even older. The plate was transferred immediately to the Regional History Museum in Pazardzhik, Bulgaria, and our site was frequented for several days by every press organization in the vicinity. The crew celebrated my first ever archaeological find being so monumental and half-jokingly prophesied that the rest of my excavating career, if I chose to continue it, would be similarly golden.

 

I, for one, felt nothing but shame. I knew that Boyadzhiev had just barely rescued the artifact from a pile of my malpractice. When asked, I could not confidently report how many layers of sediment I had scraped through since the most recent GIS record. And as I read Boyadzhiev’s paper, published this past January and nearly two years after my time at the Tell, I was hit with a gut-punching reminder of my ineptitude: “[the find] may be attributed to level B1 but their exact context is unsure” (Boyadzhiev). It seemed to me that I had buried more knowledge than I had actually uncovered. 

 

Desperately seeking someone that could sympathize with me, I asked Roxanne Zaroff, GS ’25, who had participated in four excavation seasons as an undergraduate, if she had any similar horror stories from her first field experience. She, a diligent note-taker, had apparently never made such a mistake. But Zaroff did agree that archaeology can often be a frightening field for newcomers. Of course, there is a risk of embarrassment that comes with being new to any field: Zaroff recalled how, in her first excavation season at Antiochia ad Cragum, a Hellenistic and subsequently Roman city in modern day Turkiye, she found a Roman coin inscribed with a Latin C and proudly declared that she had found a Greek coin with a lunate sigma. But rookie archaeologists must also confront the fact that their inexperience could incur irreversible costs. Zaroff said, “The first thing that anyone learns these days in archaeology is that archaeology is inherently destructive. So, having had that drilled into me, and then being given the tools to chop up the land, was terrifying.” 

 

This is not to say that archaeology guards itself against newcomers. Zaroff told me that she never experienced any censure or unkindness from her archaeologist superiors. In my own experience, Boyadzhiev could not have been a sweeter and kinder teacher, and maintained perfect kindness to me even after I introduced an undeniable amount of uncertainty into his research. Indeed, considering the irreversibility of an archaeological stumble, it is fascinating that the frontiers and training grounds of the field are often one and the same. For instance, Columbia archaeologist Francesco De Angelis’ excavation at Hadrian’s Villa often hosts a summer field school for undergraduates both from Columbia and elsewhere, even though it was deemed a UNESCO World Heritage site in 1999. Still, a self-imposed “fieldschoolphobia” latched onto me from my time at Tell Yunatsite. 

 

When I first decided to study Classics at Columbia, I imagined that I would spend all of my summers digging away at ancient Mediterranean debris. I instead spent much of my first year staring at the webpage for the Hadrian’s Villa excavation with a hesitant mix of eagerness and worry. How devastatingly embarrassing would a similar blunder be at Hadrian’s Villa, the focal point of even more academic scrutiny than at Tell Yunatsite? The application window soon closed, and I was left planless for the summer. I told myself that I had always been more interested in philology anyways. 

 

But, a few weeks ago, Roman Lucarelli, CC ’27, a fellow student in my Ancient Greek class, happened to tell me that he had volunteered to excavate for the first time at Hadrian’s Villa this summer. I instantly felt a pang of revived regret and admired Lucarelli for his leap of courage onto the front lines of the field. I recognized then that I was still very much fascinated by archaeology and the prospect of a life in excavation; I recognized, too, how foolish I had been to chain myself from something that so enticed me, to watch enviously from the side as people like Lucarelli and Zaroff made triumphant find after triumphant find. Was my mistake at Tell Yunatsite really so bad that it proved me a hopeless cause as an excavator? Or was it just an untimely mark of my greenness on the field? My supervisor Brent had repeatedly declared that I “had an eye for archaeology,” despite the fact that my vision failed me when it was most needed. Was I going to deprive myself of the chance of ever beholding the field again because of a few seconds’ inattention?

 

As uniquely intimidating as archaeology may be, an irrational fear of the field is in no way uncommon among those of us that are just now knocking on the doors of academia. Any field seems full of fragile treasures to admiring eyes, and our own hands ever too clumsy to do them justice. Philosopher-hopefuls fear that they may grossly mishandle the shards of wisdom buried in the treatises they study. Avid readers worry that they may blaspheme their favorite authors with an erring interpretation, as if seeing a lunate sigma in a Latin C. Mathematicians and physicians doubt that they could ever spot a plate of gold that had escaped the notice of the Newtons and Einsteins. 

 

But as Hannah R. Chazin, co-director of the Columbia Center for Archaeology, wrote to me, “Sometimes students who are new to archaeology ask really intelligent and important questions about things that more experienced archaeologists take for granted or overlook, providing a new perspective that can be really important.” In the same way, first-year students have the power to admire The Odyssey from an angle inaccessible to the old guard of classical scholars, just as new cancer researchers can envision therapeutic methods that are unimaginable to more seasoned minds. How can we ever be sure that we will have nothing to give, if we never pick up the shovel and head to the field? 

 

If I choose to give myself another chance at archaeology next year, I may find that I am indeed too clumsy and careless to one day become a Kamen Boyadzhiev or Francesco De Angelis, or that archaeology was never my calling after all. But to forbid oneself from scratching an intellectual itch based on that anxiety alone is absurd. Whether we are trying out a field that tickles our curiosity or resolutely chasing after our intellectual passions, we must be prepared to crack a few shards along the way.

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Views from the Law Bridge

​Numbers and shifting dynamics in campus protest. 

By Natalie Buttner

Illustration by Derin Ogutcu

Risk in protest is often a question of numbers. In the past year, Columbia students have learned how to do this math intimately. How big a crowd is needed to move from the sidewalk to the street? How many people need to jump the fence into the west lawn before I do too? There is strength in numbers. Though smaller, bolder protests have been successful historically, in the past month we have seen the severity of the consequences for those who are singled out. A common slogan of protestors is “we keep us safe”—more effective with a larger “we.” 

 

Perhaps lost in the national coverage of the Columbia protests in the past year—though evident to anyone who has lived through them—has been the decrease in attendance following a peak during the encampment in spring 2024. With fewer students willing to rally for their cause, pro-Palestinian organizers have had to re-orient their tactics. Recent protests are smaller in size, yet bolder in their tactics. 

 

On April 3, in a collaboration between Jewish Voice for Peace and Columbia Palestine Solidarity Coalition, four Jewish protestors chained themselves to the St Paul’s gate in support of Mahmoud Khalil. There were another four student activists standing behind them on the steps in support. No more than 40 protesters stood directly outside the gate, and variable numbers of people and onlookers moved past outside of the police tape: Drivers honked in beat with the chants, a bike delivery person with a pizza bungeed to the back of his bike stopped in the street to watch, and a man on a Citibike called in a loud voice, “Expel C-U-A-D!” From the Law Bridge, the whole scene looked small. 

 

In comparison with the hundreds that inhabited the lawns during key moments last spring, the eight at the gate are very few. There were far more journalists swarming the gates with their cameras, press badges, and notebooks. Far more public safety officers patrolling the immediate area; far more than police officers, zip ties swinging from their belts. 

 

Eighteen days later, about 10 alumni chained themselves outside the Amsterdam and 116th gates. A small crowd gathered around them to chant, sing, and listen to speeches. 

 

CPSC cited university scare tactics as the cause of the stark dip in student involvement in protests. Students participating in protest have been arrested, expelled, suspended, and faced other disciplinary action as a result of speaking out. Legal experts have identified a nationwide campaign of repression on college campuses, a trend which Columbia’s campus is an undeniable example of. 

 

The atmosphere of fear has discouraged many but encouraged a few. A pro-Palestine organizer named Shay, CC ’26, “I think about all those times that I was masked and I was afraid and [Mahmoud Khalil]  put himself on the line to protect me from disciplinary action, and he has done that for every student on this campus.” For these protestors, the privileges that made them comfortable speaking out openly—their citizenship status and circumstance—have made speaking up imperative. Besides, many of the unmasked protesters have already been doxxed and are on the college’s disciplinary radar. 

 

An incident at the first chain-in presented a reminder of the persuasive power of a crowd. Onlookers and fellow protestors pooled over the Law Bridge, in a seemingly low-risk area above the cops. A few protesters in masks hung a banner from the Law Bridge, reading: “Free Mahmoud Khalil Name the Trustees.” When five Public Safety officers approached the protestors holding the banner, the surrounding crowd rushed en masse.

 

“Take your hands off students!” 

“These are our students, don’t assault them!” 

“Back off!” 

“Don’t assault our students. Are you assaulting them?” 

 

The Public Safety officers, it seemed, were asking the masked people holding the banner to show their ID. 

 

“We are all students!” 

“If you are on campus, you are a student!” 

 

“It’s on the back of your card,” the Public Safety officer brandished the back of an ID, pointing to the fine print along the bottom edge that reads, “The ID is your official University ID and must be presented upon the request of a University official. Failure to do so is a violation of University regulations and subjects holder to disciplinary action.” 

 

“For who?”

“Shame!”

“Why does she have to show ID?” 

 

The Public Safety officers were surrounded tightly on all sides by a crowd of masked students, greatly outnumbered. The crowd moved in closer. 

 

“Hey! You all are the public, do you feel safe right now?” 

“No!” the crowd replied. 

“Who are you protecting?” 

“Quit your job!” 

 

Someone points out that Public Safety is only able to ask a student to identify themselves if they have reasonable belief that they are violating the rules of the University. “Please inform me of the exact rule I am breaking!” 

 

Without seeing the ID of any student, Public Safety filed out of the crowd. Someone called after them, “Bye piggie piggies.” It was a small glimpse at the feeling of power that comes with a physical majority. The banner went back over the bridge, and all attention returned to the eight students at the gate. 

 

During the alumni protest weeks later, one alumni protestor set up a tent on the sidewalk. Immediately the police moved in, arrested the individual, and mashed the tent into a pile of tarp and poles. The tent remains a poignant symbol. It conjures the image of crowds, which, real or implied, seem to remain the most potent tool to get a reaction. 

 

While the numbers of protestors on campus warily decrease, the victims of genocide increase daily. It is impossible to hold in one’s head and heart the amount of people who have died in Gaza over the last year and a half. A long strip of fabric ran down the side of the encampment, where protestors painstakingly wrote the names of those who had been killed by the IDF. In the fall, the names of the Palestinian victims of the genocide in Gaza could be heard as one walked home from Butler, being read from Low steps. Above the chained alumni, little pieces of paper with the names of Palestinian children tied to the gates flap in the wind. 

 

The presentation of names not only functions as a space to mourn and remember, but also to recenter the on-campus movement. One alumni reflected on her experience sitting under these names while protestors chanted and spoke in front of her: “It’s very intense. I don’t know if you heard the speaker who said that she was only able to print out 10% of children under the age of one who were killed in the month of September. That’s why students are protesting, and it’s extraordinary where protesting something this monstrous is being met with such extreme oppression.” 

 

To combat apathy, Marie Adele Grosso, BC ’26, recommends considering not crowds, but individuals. “I think it is easy when we see a ton of faceless bodies, or when we are seeing lists of people being deported who we don’t know. It can be really easy for that all to just blur together. Reading stories of people who are directly affected helps contextualize how real and close to home it is, and how much it matters.” At a vigil held on April 14, students take turns reading statements from civilians and journalists in Gaza, as well as Mahmoud Khalil’s Spectator op-ed, “A Letter to Columbia.” Listening to these testimonies, even when it is difficult, remains crucial to staying tethered to the reality of the importance of these protests, even when dwindling numbers are changing the way that they look. The federal government and the Columbia administration seek to increase the risk in protest. We can be silent in the face of their repression, or we can remember the small victory over Public Safety on Law Bridge and respond to repression en masse.

Comic by Isabelle Oh

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“Whatever the style or technique, teaching at its best can be a generative act, one of the ways by which human beings try to cheat death—by giving witness to the next generation so that what we have learned in our own lives won’t die with us.” 

– College: What It Was, Is, and Should Be by Andrew Delbanco 

Illustration by Isabelle Oh

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The Technique of Living

​What Columbia College Today taught me about nonsense.

By Marianna Jocas

 

I came to Barnard with a Mount Holyoke College yearbook from 1968 that I found in my town’s thrift store. Despite my lack of personal connection to the college, I would spend long stretches of time flipping through its pages. The layout was unconventional; there was minimal writing and few ads. Each page was instead organized to hold large and impressive photos depicting quotidian acts as they appeared in that moment for the camera: teachers sitting as they leisurely graded papers, barefoot students riding bikes, lovers hidden in secret hallways. And so I cut out my favorite pages and hung them on my wall, many of which still remain. 

 

But a few months ago during a dull lecture, I came across another archive, this time one that pertained more directly to my own life. It was an online archive of Columbia College Today—the college's alumni magazine. I began to interrogate where my appetite for archives came from, realizing that much of it was rooted in the way insignificant details decorated them. I spent most of my time reading the section hidden on the sidebar called “My Columbia,” where alumni recount their favorite memories of the dorms. In the 2006 volume, Saul Fisher talks about the nightly ritual of the all-male howl in Carman, suspecting that it was “one of the salient differences between Columbia and Barnard.” Elizabeth Olesh writes about the graffiti that spawned on the walls of Furnald when students heard that it was going to be gutted and renovated. And E. Michael Geiger recounts a Panty Raid.” 

 

My attention never stayed loyal to the main articles. I always wandered to the unusual, to the mistakes. How Maggie Gyllenhaal’s last name was misspelled in the answers to the crossword puzzle on page 68, and how David Muskat wrote a letter to the editor with a pronunciation problem, for the word alumnae can only rhyme with pie if one ignores the already established anglicized version of the word alumni. My affection for these details reminded me of an interview with Marie Howe, an author and poet based in New York City. She is also an alum who has returned to teach at Columbia in the past. The conversation goes: 

 

Ms. Howe: I ask my students every week to write 10 observations of the actual world. It’s very hard for them.

 

Ms. Tippett: Really?

 

Ms. Howe: They really find it hard.

 

Ms. Tippett: What do you mean? What is the assignment? 10 observations of their actual world?

 

Ms. Howe: Just tell me what you saw this morning like in two lines. I saw a water glass on a brown tablecloth, and the light came through it in three places. No metaphor. And to resist metaphor is very difficult because you have to actually endure the thing itself, which hurts us for some reason.

 

Ms. Tippett: It does.

 

Ms. Howe: We want to say, “It was like this; it was like that.” We want to look away. And to be with a glass of water or to be with anything — and then they say, “Well, there’s nothing important enough.” And that’s whole thing. It’s the point.

 

Ms. Howe: It’s the this, right?

 

Ms. Howe: Right, the this, whatever. 

 

“The this” is why I keep returning to the Columbia College Today magazine. Even though it is an alumni magazine and charges itself with the responsibility of remembrance for entire generations, it is not shy of dwelling on the personal and specific. Reading these memories somehow makes the magazine appear more honest, as if to elaborate on the minuscule is to reveal the truth. We often worry about misrepresenting the whole, especially in something like an alumni magazine, which endeavors to remember something as fluctuating as a university campus. But we learn about the whole through its particulars. George Charles Keller ‘51, the editor of the magazine in 1961, pointed to the connection between alumni magazines and honesty when asked what he was going to do during his reign over the glossy publication, saying

 

“There is too little [honesty] in alumni magazines—and elsewhere. The magazine should not paint everything at Alma Mater gold and white. Every reader knows it just isn’t so … It should not dodge controversies, but describe their origins, dimensions, implications. It’s in the lively exchange of facts, ideas, and opinions by reasonable and well-informed people that we are most likely to make some progress … I know that trying to find the truth is like trying to gather in snowflakes, but it's exhilarating to be out in the cold occasionally.”

 

We can hold a fantasy of something until we actually get close to it and live with it; one can only idealize something so much before it becomes familiar. This is what distinguishes the magazine from other Columbia publications, because all readers have attended the school, and so it becomes a confluence of reality, nostalgia, and reunion. Current campus journalism has a different sense of relatability. It’s immediately tangible. The thrill of Columbia College Today is in its observation. 

 

What I learned from the magazine is perhaps less obvious than a student publication, because it made me pay attention to the technique of life—the minutiae of our daily existence—instead of its general choreography. By that I mean, if life is this grand performance you can probably get by well enough if you know its general movements: the successful career, the devoted partner, the loving family, but if you haven’t yet perfected the technique of it all, it ultimately remains unfinished. And to an untrained eye, these two versions of life can get confused. 

 

So maybe emphasizing the magazine’s “insignificance” is misplaced, because while I think we can gather large ideas about college life from various spaces, only in some can you find its technique. It’s a humble position that technique takes, the audience may never know how far the performer has gone to perfect the position of their body so that the dance appears seamless. But the end product is there, in all of its entirety. 

 

Columbia College Today almost glaringly tells us to focus on our technique, to make a signature of our time here. Because one day you may return and see people following your same general movements: rushing to class, eating at John Jay, or complaining about finals, but it won’t be quite right, and it’s because they’ll be oblivious to your specific routes to class, and to the mosaic of cooking stains that decorated suite 6C, and to the church stair that propped your leg as you wrote a birthday card to your soon-to-be best friend. 

 

This is all to say that paying attention to the trivial may not be as useless as we think. When we leave, the stupid stuff sticks to us because it's easily discernible against the general, overarching motion of our twenties. Columbia College Today is proof. These archives are a way of defining ourselves against the present with the past; they provide a stepping stone for leniency and self-balance. To borrow from Delbanco’s quote, storytelling at its best can be a generative act, one of the ways by which human beings try to cheat death—by giving witness to the next generation so that what we have seen in our own lives won’t die with us. This essay, then, is an ode to those who come before me, to those strangers who left pieces of themselves in writing and reconfigured my perspective towards living—on this campus, and elsewhere.

GSAS Blues

How university-wide budget cuts are reshaping the Ph.D. admissions cycle.

By Anna Patchefsky

On January 17, 2025—in the middle of graduate admissions season—the Office of the Executive Vice President for Arts and Sciences emailed faculty to announce a 65% cut in Ph.D. admissions across all academic disciplines for the upcoming cycle. Then on January 30, citing faculty’s “passionate commitment to graduate education” at an uproarious meeting the day prior, they decreased the numbers slightly for the upcoming year. Carlos Alonso, Dean of the Graduate School of Arts and Science, sent out individual emails to department heads with new numbers.

 

The mathematics department, which usually has a target of 11 incoming students, was told at first that they could have four, and then that they would have six or seven. The art history department, which also usually has 11 students, will have nine. The cuts are not as bad as the original 65% percent, nor as bad as the non-science field freeze in 2021, but they are shaping Columbia’s future. 

 

Even before Trump announced he was withholding $440 million in federal funding from Columbia, universities across the country reduced or halted Ph.D. hiring. On February 26, Stanford University announced a freeze on staff hiring and the University of Pennsylvania rescinded doctoral acceptances. 

 

The system of Ph.D. education in the United States, and at Columbia, has changed considerably in the past fifty years or so. Large unfunded cohorts competing for awards gave way to fully funded masters graduates. At one point, it was more common for Ph.D. students to drop out for a few years to waitress. Now Ph.D. students look more like post-docs: They have experience, awards, and usually, the money to have paid for advanced degrees. As Dhananjay Jagannathan, the Director of Graduate Studies for the Classical Studies Program, notes, prestige now looms even larger in each admissions cycle.

While the people who get a degree has changed, so has their economic relationship to the university. It was only in 2005 that all doctoral students were fully funded with a stipend. There has been an increased emphasis on research, an identifiable contempt for the humanities, and a steady decline of focus on undergraduate education even as class sizes have expanded. 

 

Columbia graduate student admissions information is barely public to prospective students. It takes a while to find the published comprehensive information on Columbia’s Ph.D. admissions statistics online. Individual departments can decide to publish their own statistics, but university-wide data is integrated on prospective applicant pages as an entirely separate web page. A simple search for “Columbia Ph.D. admissions statistics” yields circuitous returns. At most other universities, doctoral dashboards are readily available. A 2018 statement by the Association of American Universities emphasized the importance of graduate data transparency. 

 

To Dhananjay Jagannathan, the Director of Graduate Studies for the Classical Studies Program, part of the problem is that the announced changes seemed to hold faculty in contempt.

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Decisions were announced without any faculty consultations. “There is no consideration for their opinions, even if they are willing to talk about the role of Ph.D. students in the current academic climate.”

 

In the humanities departments, Ph.D. students TA the majority of lecture courses. Among them, the history department is uniquely collegial, its doctorate students weighing in on appropriate assignments and general course direction. Columbia sells itself with the core curriculum, promising intimate classroom settings. Ph.D. students teach the majority of these courses, not tenured professors. “We are the foot soldiers of the university,” said Juliana Torres, a current doctoral student in the history department.

In certain departments, like psychology, computer science, or economics, undergraduate students serve as TAs. Their roles, however, are more limited in scope: Having completed the course before and received a high mark, they are prepared to hold office hours and grade students’ work. But a model like this would not work for humanities students and departments. While Torres understood that the current loss in Ph.D. students might not have an immediate effect because first-year graduate students do not typically teach, the gap in departmental institutional knowledge will eventually trickle down—leading incoming Ph.D. students to fill teaching slots and shoulder a larger responsibility. Without TA’s, professors may have to resort to using Masters students as graders and changing assignments to make grading a faster activity.

Jagannathan has already noticed that a steady decrease of graduate students over the past years has impacted undergraduate education. When he first started teaching at Columbia in the Spring of 2018, the philosophy department had 40 Ph.D. students; seven years later, the department has 30. As a result, Jagannathan assigns shorter essays, with fewer people to read and grade them.

 

Jagannathan also recognized that Columbia’s inconsistent and vague messaging left department heads with unclear directives. There are usually four students in the classical studies program, and while the original annulment only allowed for one, since then the target has moved to three students. The revised admissions target told Jagannathan that the program could put out two to three offers. If someone rejected a spot off the waitlist, the department could offer two new ones. The revised letter says that if only one applicant chooses not to attend then they could admit someone else. Did that mean he could admit three students? “I read the email eight times before I could figure it out,” said Jagannathan. 

 

In a February op-ed in the Spectator, the union criticized the administration, writing “Columbia has yet to issue transparent communication about the issue.” The university’s obfuscation over the Ph.D. emails is part of a broader pattern: Columbia trades in secrecy. When I went to meet with Professor Michael Thaddeus of the mathematics department, he had the Harvard alumni magazine flipped to the page breaking down the endowment’s budget. At Columbia, the budget is shown once a year, in a room in Low Library, and you have to register to see it. Information is doled out at specific moments, and only to the select few. As Thaddeus put it, “The secrecy surrounding the budget is more fit for an intelligence agency.” 

 

Columbia’s veil of secrecy—which Thaddues partially unmasked in a 2022 report that Columbia was submitting “inaccurate, dubious or highly misleading” statistics to the U.S. News and World Report—demarcates the line between perception and reality. Columbia upholds international reputation, even as its internal trust crumbles in on itself. As Thaddeus says, “Columbia wants to avoid reputational damage while damaging it themselves.”

 

Unlike STEM Ph.D.s, who receive grants as funding for their year-round lab work, humanities Ph.D.s typically do not have the same support; their funding barely covers the cost of summer research travel. The university knew that negotiations were forthcoming. They expected graduate students to demand being paid on a 12 month contract—a sum to cover the cost of research and living—per the unions internal pre-bargaining votes. 

 

Columbia’s administration provided three reasons for the Ph.D. cuts: academia’s fledgling job market, competition with peer institutions, and upcoming union contract negotiations. In citing the negotiations as reasons for the cuts, the administration implied that its lawyers would easily acquiesce to the union’s demands.

 

In reality, Columbia fired the president of the union, Grant Miner, on the eve of scheduled negotiations. Negotiations were delayed as a result. Then, the university and the union could not agree on a Zoom option that would allow Miner to participate in the bargaining process. As this article is going to print, no agreement has been reached.

 

Unlike Masters students, doctoral students are laborers, not scholars: They are paid to work. Torres wondered if, by cutting graduate students, the administration was selecting less radical voices into their cohorts, such as students that maybe would not sign a union card.  

 

Columbia, a large research university, relies on government funding for doctoral students to produce the knowledge vital to the United States intellectual predominance. To Dmitiri Basvov, the chair of the Department of Physics, graduate students are responsible for some of the most innovative scientific breakthroughs. Limiting the role of graduate students “is not just bad for the university, but bad for science in this country.”

 

To Thaddeus, the cuts were more budgetary. The cuts diverted money away from the students and into the elusive renovation of Uris Hall. The asbestos filled building is largely unused, and in the middle of campus with no street access; renovating it is expensive. However,  students and departments would benefit from the open space; it would be a necessary and long-promised relocation of the center of the undergraduate intellectual community. Ideally, Uris’s circular void would be repurposed, and Ph.D. admissions would not have to be sacrificed in the process. 

 

Jagannathan, speaking around the Columbia consensus concerning the endowment, helped to historicize the financial crisis Columbia seems to perpetually be in. Just in 2019, 8% of operating funds were clawed back from all departments because the Manhattanville project was too expensive. Columbia could dip into reserves, or even liquidate the endowment. As Jagnathan says, “It’s a rainy day fund, and it is certainly raining.”

The Room Where It Happens

The little-known grudge matches shaping how university funding gets spent.

By Schuyler Daffey

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On November 22, 2024, Columbia’s undergraduate governing bodies met in a large Uris lecture hall to discuss the reallocation of $338,700 of funding. The event, dubbed F@CU II, was unprecedented. The money had been freed up after Melanie Bernitz, the Interim Executive Vice President of University Life, gave the student governing boards credit to compensate councils for facilities and securities funds. After the class councils reclaimed their share, the boards vied for the remaining $223,100. This was a heated battle, spurred on by the need to meet a high demand with a limited supply, which created tensions and fractures between the leaders of the respective governing boards. ABC’s outsized demands initiated particularly tense discussions in the meeting. After the time ran out on their fraught hour of battling with each other for funding, the student leaders gathered together to pose for a photo at the front of the room. 

 

The irony in this abrupt reversal was not lost on anyone. 

 

F@CU (shorthand among insiders for Financials at Columbia) typically occurs every year in the fall before school starts for the semester. From the total sum of Undergraduate Student Life fees, the Student Council Executive Board decides on the sum they require for the next year, and then put the rest of the money back into the metaphorical pot, after which the residual sum is awarded to ABC (Activities Board at Columbia), SGB (Student Governing Board), Community Impact, Bacchanal, the InterGreek Council, and CSGB (Club Sports Governing Board). Every board is allowed to make a request, but only class councils have a vote in the final sums of money allotted. Funding cuts, then, are effectively entirely out of the student governing boards’ control. What’s more, F@CU is not a public process: It is not advertised to student groups and the average student at Columbia may never have heard of the annual meeting. It seems wrong that despite such enormous amounts of money being allocated—money that determines the fate of student groups, and thus has so much bearing on the student experience at Columbia—F@CU remains cloistered and covert.

Armando Gimenez, CC ’26, current President of ABC, joined the organization through happy coincidence. He remarks, chuckling wryly, that “I got bamboozled into joining ABC,” explaining that a girl he had a crush on convinced him to come to a meeting, where he unwittingly signed a piece of paper which made him indigenous representative. Despite being a founding member of Columbia Culinary Society in his Freshman year, Gimenez ultimately left to focus on ABC, because “it was the place I felt I could make the most effective change.” Driven by a desire to respond to discontent he perceived from Columbia students, who faced recurring problems with securing sufficient club funding and spaces in which to meet, Gimenez rapidly rose through the ranks of ABC, becoming treasurer his junior year and eventually president.

While ABC typically funds performance-based clubs which put on larger programming— from Orchesis to Kwanzaa, SGB services clubs associated with activism and religious work, which generally put on smaller events. Mohammad Hemeida, CC ’25, former chair of ABC, has been on the board since the spring of his freshman year. He describes how the increase in the student life fee did not meet the anticipated facility and service expenses calculated by governing boards this year—encompassing everything from background check costs to AV and Tech fees—which had increased from the previous year. Indeed, a significant reduction in the funds awarded to governing boards this year—from $1,352,031.06 in 2023 to $1,206,830.14 in 2024—wreaked havoc on the expected finances of the governing boards. When it seemed that the Facilities and Services fund was in danger of going into overdraft, several governing board and class presidents, including Hemeida, organized a meeting with former President Katrina Armstrong, which resulted in Melanie Bernitz approving the Facilities and Securities fund credit to compensate councils.

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Hemeida initially joined the board as a way in which to advocate for student groups and ensure events, co-sponsorships, and allocations were run more smoothly. The process of funding allocation, as Hemeida puts it, is that of “a large amount of power concentrated in a small number of people which decides the fate of a ton of student groups.” Hemeida ran for chair of SGB in the spring of 2024, amid the construction of the encampment and pro-Palestinian protests on campus. He describes that time period as occurring alongside some significant changes in the senior administration, in addition to several updates to university rules and guidelines being released which appeared to alter the way in which student groups functioned. 

“If we were undertaking this project of reforming the way student groups worked, of creating new disciplinary rules and guidelines about the way student groups were run, especially with political and religious groups which were heavily mired in the controversy on campus,” said Hemeida. “I felt that I could contribute something real to the discussion.” Hemeida ensured that student groups received the clarification on university rules and protections they needed from the administration: “We succeeded in finding the things student groups agreed on, no matter what side you were on and ensuring the university never transgressed on those important values.” 

Among these accomplishments was an explicit clarification from University Administration that student groups could hold events without fear of their board members being held liable for a possible breach of university policy or conduct. He has since fought for confirmation that if an individual were to attend an event in which there is a confirmed rules violation, the group itself will be disciplined rather than any arbitrary attendee of the event. Hemeida was also concerned that this fear of retribution for attending events on campus would have a chilling effect on campus speech: If the nebulous nature of University rules persisted, students would continue to fear for their safety and culpability, which would in turn mitigate discourse, dialogue, and activism on campus. 

Despite fighting for their constituents’ rights to free discourse and unimpeded participation in events on campus, the role of chair or president of a student governing board is one that can often be Sisyphean, and sometimes even thankless. These positions entail enormous pressure from student groups who blame their respective governing boards for insufficient funding due to cuts which ultimately are out of the governing boards’ control, since governing boards do not get a vote in the allocation of funding. Boards merely draft a report for councils to use in their decisions. Meanwhile, F@CU is necessarily fraught. Without a mandate on how money is dispersed, one group is often forced to step down to ensure the others meet their requirements. In September 2024, for instance, Community Impact requested only $8000 dollars, far less than their initial amount, in order to free up funds for the other boards. And in F@CU II, Community Impact received none of the reallocation money. 

 

Budgeting deficits plague Greta VanZetten, CC ’26, President of CSGB (Club Sports Governing Board). As the most chronically underfunded board, CSGB is only capable of meeting 40% of each sport’s needs, forcing clubs to subsidise through participant fees in order to stay afloat. VanZetten explains that CSGB cannot afford to mismanage funds; every expense must be rigorously tracked and accounted for. While Club Sports use every cent of their funding each year, ABC and SGB regularly have a surplus. Indeed, clubs within ABC and SGB were reminded in a recent email to spend all of their funding before the end of the semester, a bitter pill to swallow for VanZetten, when Club Sports must generate altogether over one million in revenue per year to be able to meet their running costs. 

 

As a direct consequence of funding not meeting expected costs for club teams, most, if not all, sports charge a membership fee, while higher level competitions, like regionals and nationals, are often paid out of pocket. These participation fees range from reasonable to astronomical, with membership of the ski and snowboarding Team, at the highest end of the spectrum, costing up to $925 per semester. Participation in Club Sports, then, can be costly at best and inaccessible at worst, especially since CSGB can afford to set aside only $2000 out of $19,000 funds for first generation and low income students. 

 

VanZetten’s devotion to her role is evident: she advocates ardently for the value of Club Sports to the student population and is able to reel off a series of statistics on student participation (over 2000 students from all four undergraduate schools, participating in over 36 different clubs, with more waiting to be recognized). And she has to be a strong proponent of the board, as “Club Sports operates in a weird position, because we intersect both athletics and University Student Life, and I think often we are left out of the USL picture and defaulted to athletics, but not fully part of athletics either.” CSGB is often excluded from other governing board privileges. This is the first year that Club Sports was eligible to apply for JCFC (Joint Council Financial Committee) funding, a hard won fight at F@CU, while CSGB was the only board not invited to be part of Days on Campus for incoming students. 

 

F@CU, and the club recognition process more broadly, is evidently far from ideal. It is no surprise that Gimenez, VanZetten, and Hemeida all expressed their frustrations at not being franchised, and thus not being given a voice in the decision making process at F@CU. But the process of allocating funding used to be far more egalitarian, with every Governing Board, alongside the councils, a voting member, before the F@CU constitution was changed in 2023 to allow only councils to vote on the final allocation of funds. The former constitution has been erased from the internet, despite Gimenez’s efforts to find it. 

 

The draconian decision to alter the constitution came after a particularly heated Spring F@CU, when the InterGreek Council was awarded no funding. Hemeida recalls the other Governing Board leaders conspiring to vote down the IGC share, joining forces to weaken IGC’s vote in order to secure more funding for their clubs. The councils determined that altering the constitution would prevent governing boards from having overtly hostile working relationships, since, to secure their own funding, governing boards would routinely target another board’s allocation. Councils argue that as the group entrusted with the student life fee, they should have ultimate control over its allocation, while governing boards contend that they have been stripped of their voice and should have a more concrete role in funding as stewards of the groups who shape so much of the student experience at Columbia. 

Yet rather than simplifying the allocation process, the newfound powerlessness of the governing boards has instead resulted in the nuances and intricacies of F@CU politics beginning to resemble, to some extent, the convoluted side deals and clandestine rendezvous of Julius Caesar. Gimenez explains that, without a voice in the final fund allocation process, ABC has “to speak to each council individually to get them to vote in our favor.” If a governing board wants to propose a constitutional change during F@CU, that board must meet individually with each council to campaign for support on their cause. It seems fitting, somehow, that Columbia’s club funding process would resemble lobbying on the Hill more than anything else. Lobbying, that is, over your Undergraduate Student life fees.

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Illustration by Etta Lund

high mass

By Ryan Crawford

Lord, i am not worthy

 

instead i paint my lies like my mother paints her nails

cheap dollar-store red & by the TV

               & i pray for what feels like a decade

 

that you should enter

 

the second-hand smoke in the living room

               our own private incense

 

               descending into lines of adoration

because i never know what to tell you in naked air

or whether I can stay

 

under my roof

 

for much longer.

besides, smoke is only air

with a few lives between

birth & disappearing

 

but only say the word

 

and it'll stay a bit longer

but so will i

               waiting

 

and my soul shall be

 

somewhere between the couch

               & town
 

healed

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Diving Into The Wreck, Again (Responding to A. Rich)

By Elika Khosravani

I will begin by saying that Every Lady Sings The Blues. It is a terrible hue, a blue of utter pain. Coiled into a wound of despair, it festers. 

 

And so, I am bent at the waterline. Cross-dressed, cross-legged; liquid feet rarely tread the surface. A static eternity, in turns. And what of it?

 

While everyone else heads home, I let my mind dance forward, and with each smeared step, I’m splitting open. How could all these tangled truths, caught in coral reefs and rotting wood, be, in essence, a site of renewal? I must admit it is not simple. But I will try to explain.

 

I trail along the cobbled coastline with my bare feet and scraped knees. I pick at my pruned fingers. I listen to the splatter of rain wash everything away. I walk until the ground softens and slackens, until I am waist-deep in blue-green water, until I am lapping up salt and spit and sand. It chews through clumps of hair, of memory. I stay and float. Dawn breeds dusk breeds dawn: the crescent of the horizon stays the same.

 

Next tide’s reprise, I seek a different prize. Tomorrow, I set sail with masts I have weaved—pen pressed to night, a runnel of ink marks the stars. Look behind me to see if the wild wind has stayed the course.  

 

Vessel grim, daring and darling. O scalding shades of blue. Purring Polaris, curled in my lap.

 

Where shall we wait? We the ladders, the forgotten ruins, the buoys. Flip over the cyanometer and stick it into the surface. Unresponsive: stick it down your throat instead. The temperature does not change. Currents roll the dice. Cackle of Medusa, lost in an azure haze. Swallow me dry, at sea, at least.

 

I lick at my nails. I have no teeth; they have not grown in yet, and I do not know why. 

 

Black rubber armour. Plastic goggles, oversized band. Oxygen mask. Dangling feet, furled flippers. Stay, just a little longer. Fling the anchor: plateau punctured, a gaping wound. Myth-busting nereid, its release coated with hesitation; slow like doxycycline, plunging into the sunken sand-bed.

 

Pinch your nose; close your eyes; forego the ladder; step off the ledge; don’t think twice; don’t look back. Deep in saturation, sink slowly into oblivion. Writhing in black, a pseudo-embryonic Eden. I don’t know which way is up, or down. Swimming in rimmed colour, twisting and turning. Descend into discovery.

 

What a fair sight, this altar—beacon of truth! Wondrous was the wreck: stained with sin, sagging with guilt. Drenched with ichor, adorned with treasure. Yet beneath that piscine vision, I began to see an ancient pain. I saw a sunken Pharos, warped radiance wet with blood.

 

Circle the wreck, then. Endure the sickled sorrows, veneered with gold and silver. A ribbon of red, long and crimson. Tied to my throat, I am tugged to mast, insistently. Felled from the forest, this water-eaten log: my ripped roots. Peel the planks, bark by bark. Scrape off the barnacles, the moss, the gems. Bleach out the blues and browns, dissolve this rite of devilish decadence. Book of myths stripped bare.

 

A stream of sunlight slashes through the surface. A tear in the static. It ripples, towards the shingled shore. 

 

Face-to-face with a carved figurehead, I recall my hometown, and with it, a siren. Perched, silently—her stare a slit of steel. Crowned with seaweed, her bejewelled biga: heavy is the head.

 

Now I want to ask her: Do you dive in? Or do you hesitate, unmoving, and peer into the wreck? She does not answer. Her lips—pale and still and violet: “O, loud-moaning Amphitrite!” Lovely mouth, gagged with algae. Overflowing, she swallows the weeds and spits out foam.

 

I am caught between two horrifying fates: the siren or the abyss. Which will snatch my voice first: waiting, or drowning? 

 

Whether I sink or swim, I dream of Argonaut. Of glory and gore. Of sun-dried corpses, blood and wine staining the wooden deck. Siren, whatever did they make of you and your sanguine delight?

 

Torn between Scylla and Charybdis, I stop digging. I float there, knife-blade in hand, beam of bubbles beaded on my brows, wild-eyed and braid unravelled. I float there, in the wreck I further wrecked, alone in the darkness, in this glittering gulf, in its all-consuming silence.

 

Ridged finger-ends, skin suppurating. My wrinkled hands, too weak to steer the wheel or wield my blade, but strong enough to hold the book, one final time. Remember that all words are written in water.

 

When will having lived a life take a name? Nothing comes of nothing. Now, I think, I can admit freely: a gem may saturate the world with colour, but one jewel alone a crown does not make. I want the crown.

 

Let the sailors, anchored in ambition, dig me up. By my salt-matted hair or limp arm, veins of viridian splitting through flesh. By whatever limb remains, after the fish have feasted through my rubber armour. Waxed and waned, they lay me on the deck. 

 

Let them peel me up, and abandon my will therewith. I sink, but I remember.

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Illustration by Oonagh Mockler

Oscar Luckett, CC ’25, and Rohan Mehta, CC ’25, had a platonic meet-cute freshman year. Sitting at side-by-side tables at Hungarian on two seperate friend-dates, they ended up talking to each other the entire time. They clicked immediately. As their roomate of two years, I have had the distinct pleasure of spending quite a lot of time with them—more often than not, at odd hours of the day, in partial states of undress, with toothbrushes sticking out of our mouths. 

 

Rohan and Oscar have a lot in common. They are both native New Yorkers—the former from the Upper East Side and the latter from Brooklyn. Rohan is the Senior Class President of Columbia College, Oscar is a University Senator for the College. They share an acute interest in the goings-on of Columbia’s campus, which they often debrief in our living space (they are my primary source of campus news). They have ridden a combined total of over 3,000 miles via Citi Bike. They both delight in the craft of humor; they put thought into telling jokes. 

 

I asked them to discuss their differences. They commented: 

 

Oscar: “I think I like to read a little bit more than you.”

Rohan: “He’s definitely a little more intellectual, that’s for sure. He’s a reader. You should see how many books he read for his thesis. He carries them around sometimes.”

O: [silly voice] “I’m becoming a D1 schlepper!”

R: [amused] “I still don’t believe that he read them, but he claims that he read them.”

 

A crucial difference between the two lies in the types of jokes they tell. Rohan enjoys pushing the boundaries of acceptable humor; he is acerbic and wry. Oscar, on the other hand, delights in esoteric puns, goofy dance moves, and 30 Rock quotes. It is a rarity to hear him curse. Their two approaches balance one another: They have a delightful, if sometimes inexplicable, back-and-forth banter. For example: 

 

R: “You have shockingly high energy when you wake up. You’re waking up, you’re ready.” 

O: “Sometimes I wake up like I’m getting off the bench at a basketball game, like COME ON! Let’s get in there!” 

R: “I mean, I’m not like [silly voice] ‘Whoa! Where’s the Kool-Aid guy coming from?’ that’s not—” 

O: “The Kool-Aid man?”

R: “The Kool-Aid man walks into a room and makes himself known.” 

O: “It’s true.” 

 

Oscar is six-foot two, unfailingly kind, and seems to move through the world with ease. Our apartment building is populated primarily with elderly ladies who have lived here for decades. They immediately adored Oscar, and I understood why: He is kind and cordial in an old-fashioned way; he has excellent posture; he made the effort to give them all his phone number when we first moved in. He is unceasingly chipper, even first thing in the morning, when I am at my grumpiest. Whenever I encounter Oscar in the apartment, I almost always end up hunched over laughing.

 

Rohan, on the other hand, is energetic, charming, and light on his feet. He tells stories with clever punchlines. He, more than anyone else I know, is prepared to face the adult world: He can effortlessly roast a slab of lamb, host a classy dinner party, do his taxes, and negotiate rent with our landlord. He oozes competence. He is meticulously clean. His calendar is booked weeks, if not months, in advance. Josh Kazali, CC ’25, once noted: “Rohan is a master of making lunch plans. He will plan lunch with you and you won’t even realize it.”

 

It goes without saying that Rohan and Oscar are both extremely busy; they spend the vast majority of their time outside of the apartment. I see them most often late at night in our shared hallway, where they toggle rapidly between debating campus news and riffing in silly voices. These moments have become precious to me as our time together draws to a close.

 

Rohan once told me that the formula for crafting a good joke relies upon finding commonality between vastly different ideas, akin to finding the intersection point between two lines in 3D space. “You have these two lines of thought, and you find the spot where they are in the same z,” he explained. “You’re making this unexpected connection between totally different things.” Indeed, the image is apt for describing how the three of us connect: We live vastly different, busy lives, occupying different nooks of campus, but collide, in the wee hours of the night, in the few square feet that connect our bedrooms. 

 

Oscar replied, “And is that us? Or is that wordplay? I’m not following the metaphor.” 

Rohan didn’t pick up the metaphor, either. “That’s what makes something funny,” he said.

 

Oscar switched to a silly voice. “Let me bust out my algebraic calculator!”

“The square root of Z is the punchline!” Now Rohan is doing a silly voice, too.
“You do the math.”

Oscar Luckett and Rohan Mehta

By Sona Wink

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Comic by Ines Alto

Casey Blake

By Sona Wink 

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Illustration by Phoebe Wagoner

I was a jittery sophomore sitting in a hardwood Pupin chair. Professor Casey Blake, standing before a crowd of us, popped open a can of Diet Coke. In standard form, he commenced a methodical, crystal-clear lecture, delivered in perfect sentences from memory. On the screen was an image of Jane Addams, a juggernaut in Professor Blake’s popular US Intellectual History 1865-Present (USIH) lecture. 

 

That lecture lit me on fire. I first visited Professor Blake’s high-ceilinged, book-stuffed office to ask him about Addams. I have since had the privilege of getting to know him beyond his lecture: I worked as his research assistant in 2022, and then as a teaching assistant for Freedom and Citizenship, a summer program for New York City high school students that he founded in 2009. I came to learn that Professor Blake is extraordinarily kind. He is generous and attentive to undergraduates; he is a close mentor to the PhD students that he advises. He tends to make self-deprecating jokes.

 

As we spoke in his office, Addams’s memoir Forty Years at Hull-House sat on the otherwise empty table between us; her ideas undergirded much of our conversation. Addams felt there was a gap between the philosophy she had learned in college and the practical needs of most Americans. Her life’s work involved forming an egalitarian community that was accessible to both working-class immigrants and elite academics. It is striking to me how this very description applies to the work that Professor Blake has done over the course of his career. While an astute, accomplished academic, Blake is also, by his own description, a unique form of community organizer. As founder of Columbia’s American Studies department, he created a lively, egalitarian forum where faculty, staff, and students from disparate areas of university life could exchange ideas and form connections. Freedom and Citizenship placed low-income, first-generation high schoolers into a rigorous political philosophy seminar and asked them to harness those lessons for a civic engagement project—applying theory to practice. 

 

Professor Blake plans to retire in June 2026. While he intends to return to teach one class per semester, this is likely his last time teaching USIH. I realized after our conversation that I had inadvertently structured my questions to mirror that of an USIH lecture: I sought to understand Blake’s upbringing, his education, and the ideas that have animated his career. I unconsciously situated him in the lineage of thinkers that he has devoted his career to. Along the way, I learned that he has a cat and used to write poetry as a hobby. 

 

This interview has been edited and condensed for clarity. 

 

 

B&W: The basics. Where did you grow up?

 

CB: I grew up here in New York … My mother and I moved around a little bit, but we were always in the Yorkville neighborhood. 

 

B&W: What did your parents do?

 

CB: My father was a modern architect and critic of some renown and some significance. He was also editor of the Architectural Forum, which was the most prestigious architecture magazine of the post-war period. His name was Peter Blake … My mother was a fashion stylist, and she worked for seventeen or eighteen years at Life magazine in the fashion department. 

 

It was a very artistically oriented family, and to some extent, also an intellectual family … Looking back, it was quite an unusual milieu in which I grew up. It was also a political family, a left-leaning family, not communist, but socialists and social democrats. There were also people in our orbit who were anarchists and anarcho-pacifists, sort of part of the milieu. So there was a fair amount of talk about politics, especially since this was in the 1960s and 70s, when politics was unavoidable.

 

B&W: What were you like as a young person?

 

CB: I suppose I was always a rather bookish boy and young person … very engaged in the political upheavals of the day. Growing up in New York, I was precocious, and so my friends and I attended all the anti-war demonstrations and so on. 

 

B&W: Where did you go to undergraduate and graduate school?

 

CB: I went to Wesleyan University as an undergraduate, and then I went to the University of Rochester as a grad student.

 

B&W: When you were at Wesleyan, what books, classes, or professors were most influential for you?

 

CB: A very important professor for me was John Paoletti, an art historian, a major historian of Renaissance art, and I would say, hands down, the best teacher I’ve ever encountered. He set the bar very high; I’ve always sort of aspired to get close … I think that he sent me in a particular direction, thinking about art in its social context, thinking about art as part of public culture. 

 

At that point in the early and mid-1970s I just assumed that any modern, thinking, person who wanted to make sense of modernity had to know about Freud and Marx, and so I took a pretty deep dive into psychoanalysis and Marxism, broadly conceived.

 

B&W: What made John Paoletti a good teacher, and what about him do you try to emulate?

 

CB: Well, he was a brilliant and inspiring lecturer. He spoke quickly; he didn't read a lecture. He had lecture notes, but clearly was learned and witty, and elegant in his self presentation—I certainly haven’t emulated that. (B&W: laughs) But also generous and warm one-on-one. 

 

B&W: Perhaps this brings us into your time at graduate school—how did you end up doing American intellectual history, specifically?

 

CB: After graduating from college, I lived for a year in Spain. I was very left in my orientation in this period. I was studying—and this is the late 1970s—what was then known as Euro-communism … I was following political debates in the US, post-New Left political debates. 

 

Without much counsel from my undergraduate teachers about which programs to apply to—I really didn’t know what I was doing, quite frankly—I made decisions based on which ideas most appealed to me … I followed the debates among historians on the left in that period, and was drawn to the work of Christopher Lasch, who ended up being my mentor and friend, and also Eugene Genovese, who was at Rochester at the time. Rochester was a center for Marxist historiography … Without ever having set foot in Rochester, New York before, or even communicating with all those people, I accepted Rochester’s offer.

 

What I experienced there was very unusual—it was completely different than the graduate program at Columbia, or maybe anywhere else. The graduate program at Columbia now, and I'm sure back in the day, is very professional. It’s preparing you to be a professional historian, and it does it very well. There’s a lot to be said for that approach. The Rochester program … was more like going to graduate school to be an intellectual. 

 

B&W: That sounds amazing.

 

CB: There was a sense that those of us who were there in graduate school, especially those working with [Lasch], that the work that we were doing had something to do with how one should live one’s life … That was a distinctive feature of the milieu at Rochester, very unusual in that regard, because it was a smaller program and because it was removed from New York and the Ivies. 

 

It had a very unusual aspect to it … more communal. Christopher Lasch and his wife Nell created a community in their home that included grad students, colleagues, neighbors, their children’s teachers and so on.  When I think of the teachers to whom I am deeply indebted, it would be John Paoletti and Christopher Lasch. I couldn’t have asked for better mentors than those two. Very different people, I should say, but quite remarkable influences. 

 

B&W: What was Christopher Lasch like as a person and friend, and how did his interests influence yours?

 

CB: He was reserved and proper, but once one got to know him, one realized that he was a man of humor and generosity … His lecturing style was really entirely different from what I encountered and admired in John Paoletti. He read his lectures, and his lectures were beautifully crafted essays. When all is said and done, Lasch was a writer above all else, and a very gifted writer.

 

I encountered [Lasch] at an interesting moment in his career, and that was intellectually exciting for me as well. He had spent the 1970s engaged with the Frankfurt School in particular—that current of Marxist theory. By the time I arrived there, he was moving away from the issues that had preoccupied him for much of the 1970s and was interested in reading radical thinkers outside of the Marxist tradition, and I was too. We shared a lot of reading together. I would feed him things that I thought he would find of interest, and vice versa. 

 

I was very interested, and remain interested, in romantic radicals and romantic anti-capitalists, like Ruskin and Morris and that whole tradition. I passed things on to him by those thinkers. I remember he and I read Arendt—this was reading outside of the classroom. I remember reading Habermas. 

 

B&W: Lasch was one of my favorite readings we did in Intellectual History. 

 

CB: Oh, good. 

 

B&W: I was amazed to learn that you were so close with him. 

 

CB: He became very interested in the populist tradition, and in his big book, which he saw as his magnum opus and the culmination of his career, The True and Only Heaven, he tried to bring together this populist tradition with a certain strain of romantic Protestantism. He synthesized them into a radical critique of the ideology of progress. In his view, it was an ideology that had begun with the earliest liberal political economists, Smith and others, that defined human beings in terms of their wants and their desires—a kind of limitless desire, and therefore authorized the creation of a vast economic apparatus to satisfy those ever expanding desires. Lasch was always a critic of consumer culture.  The 20th century consumer culture had its roots there and in a religion of technological progress. He traced a tradition that was localist in orientation … He combined this tradition with a religious tradition that emphasized hope over progress, and limits over a belief in limitlessness and perfectibility.

 

B&W: The combination you’re describing of romantic anti-capitalism and localism reminds me of the kind of intellectual throughline that you described between the four protagonists of Beloved Community. If this was a focus of Lasch, is this an interest of yours as well? 

 

CB: I suppose this drew me to Lasch without my thinking through really at the time. I’ve always had an interest in thinkers who don’t fit neatly into familiar ideological categories. 

 

B&W: Me too.

 

CB: Lasch encouraged me to read Lewis Mumford’s social theory. A figure like Mumford is Hannah Arendt, who certainly doesn’t fit into easily identifiable political categories. Paul Goodman was very conservative in his approach to education in particular, but also an anarchist in his politics—communitarian anarchist. There are other contemporary thinkers one might consider in this way: Marilynne Robinson, Wendell Berry. 

 

But I’ve also come to realize that certain figures who I admire, who are often considered liberal or progressive icons, need to be understood as combining elements of a certain cultural conservatism with political reformism or radicalism. Certainly Jane Addams—I was just looking at her memoir [gestures to a heavily sticky-noted copy of Forty Years at Hull-House, which sits on the table between us]. She strikes me as such a figure; also Walter Rauschenbusch, the founder of the social gospel movement and a huge influence on King. The social gospel is important to me personally. In both cases, political intervention that might be conceived as broadly progressive was made in the name of defending what might be called non-political values, right? 

 

This was a line of argument I had already encountered as an undergraduate, when I was reading figures like Camus—we read a lot of existentialists—and even Orwell. In both cases, there's an argument that politics was inescapable, given the times they were living in, but one entered into politics in order to safeguard values and ways of living in the world that were not political. This seems like a paradoxical position, but I think it’s an important one. 

 

One of the really disturbing features of the American political scene and the cultural scene, including at universities, that I’ve witnessed in the last twenty years, is the way in which many leading figures on the political right—we see this very vividly with Trump and his movement—and to my mind, much of what now passes for the academic left in the humanities, are actually brothers and sisters under the skin. They both believe that education, the arts, and culture generally, are essentially delivery systems for political ideology, often of the crudest sort. Everything essentially becomes understood as a site for political warfare. 

 

I’ve long felt that this feedback loop between the Trumpist right and its erstwhile adversaries has been very destructive of culture, of the arts, of intellectual life, and of everyday life in general. Now we’re seeing it hit us with full force. I’ve been interested in those thinkers who have thought about their political interventions as a way of safeguarding certain values and ways of living that shouldn’t be reduced to the clash of power against power. 

 

B&W: I have a bit of an obsession with Black Mountain College and the Greenwich Village scene, both of which you describe in the US Intellectual History lecture. I’m so jealous of those people—they’re in this bubbling hotbed of intellectual creation. I’m curious, because you’re familiar with a lot of these different scenes in America: What are the ingredients or prerequisites for a scene to flourish? What are commonalities between the contexts that birthed them? 

 

CB: Well, Randolph Bourne wrote an essay titled “The Experimental Life.” I think that the idea of the experimental life, which is not altogether different from the idea of living life as art, is something one finds in the Greenwich Village scene and also Black Mountain College. I think that what Black Mountain was able to do, that the Greenwich Village scene might not have been able to do, is ground that in an educational project. It was Black Mountain College—it was a liberal arts college that, in some respects, had the arts at the center of the curriculum, and that gave it a focus and a grounding that the Greenwich Village scene did not have. What those two scenes did have in common … was an exciting dialogue between American cultural and intellectual traditions and European traditions. That is certainly the case at Black Mountain. This is too simple, but in some respects, it was the place where Deweyan pragmatism and Bauhaus-inspired modernism met.

 

B&W: I have heard you describe a lot of intellectuals with a historian’s objective lens, which is appropriate in a lecture context or beyond. I am noticing that there is some intersection between the people you are interested in as a historian and the people that you are interested in because you feel allegiance to their political values. How do you navigate the boundary between being a historian and being an intellectual?

 

CB: One of the things that I always find—and teaching the intellectual history course is important in this regard—is that many of the people who we read in that course, and many people who I have read over the years, are good traveling companions, intellectual traveling companions. I am, in my mind, often engaged in a dialogue with them. My estimation of many of those figures has changed over the years. I don’t think the same way that I did when I was thirty years old about certain figures. 

 

The course that you took with me has evolved and taken many different forms … It is a living tradition that is part of my life … But I don’t necessarily think that there is an immediate political payoff to what has been for me an intense, decades-long engagement with these thinkers. It has led me to view a certain kind of political rhetoric, especially within the academy, with some skepticism.

 

B&W: Could you provide an example of that?

 

CB: This connects to what I was saying earlier about what I see as a feedback loop between the Trumpist right and some of what passes for the left in the academy. The politics of cheerleading and name-calling is of no interest to me, and the politics of outrage is of limited interest to me. There are many reasons to be outraged, now more than ever, but a constant emotional tenor of outrage can disable thinking, in my view. 

 

What I want to say, though, is that some of these ideas have informed my programmatic work at Columbia, both with the Center for American Studies and with the Freedom and Citizenship Program. I didn’t plan it this way, but as I look back on some of what I’ve done at Columbia, I realized that I was a kind of community organizer within the university. This was hardly something I had planned on. 

 

B&W: How cool. 

 

CB: But it kind of turned out that way—not a community organizer in the way this is ordinarily understood … but within the context of the university, creating sort of counter-cultural communities, right?

 

B&W: How so? Are you referring to Freedom and Citizenship and American Studies, or—

 

CB: The Center for American Studies as well, but also on a micro level—the kind of community of grad students who I have been so fortunate to teach, who have not only been my dissertation students, but who have been teaching assistants for the intellectual history course. The course has served to make it possible for those students to know one another and share their ideas … treating those people as colleagues, not as students. 

 

I think one of the things that I tried to do as director of the Center for American Studies—and I was not the only director, of course, Andrew Delbanco was also director—I really tried to create an intellectually serious but egalitarian community, and a community in which regular tenure-track and tenured faculty, lecturers, adjuncts, grad students, and staff were all treated as equals—as colleagues. I was the boss—it would be dishonest to pretend otherwise—but I didn’t shove it down everybody’s throat. When I think back on that time, if you walked into that little suite of offices in Hamilton Hall on a given afternoon, you would find faculty of different kinds; lecturers, adjuncts, tenured faculty, staff, the graduate student advisors, undergraduate majors, the Freedom and Citizenship high school kids, the Freedom and Citizenship TAs. It was bursting at the seams; it was very lively, and it was a different kind of atmosphere than one finds when one walks into the usual departmental office … It was a community that people wanted to be part of. The students who were attracted to the major and to the program and to working in Freedom and Citizenship, like you, understood that it was something different from what they found elsewhere. 

 

I had this idea as director of the Center and as founding director of Freedom and Citizenship that we’re in New York, and we should take seriously that this is Columbia University in the City of New York. That’s the official name of the university. It would be exciting and important to try to create a dialogue and ongoing exchange between what goes on here and what goes on out there. One way of doing this—and Andy Delbanco was instrumental here—was to bring distinguished practitioners in the arts, and law, and politics, and other realms into the classroom to teach undergraduates. Another way of doing this, and this was important to me, was to launch a civic engagement curriculum where students would be engaged in traditional academic work and combine that with practical work in the community. Finally Freedom and Citizenship is, in some ways, the linchpin of this vision I had of the Center as a site for civic engagement. It was a pretty unusual place, physically and intellectually. 

 

I didn’t do it single-handedly. I had a lot of support from fellow faculty and students and others. Virtually no support from the administration, but that’s the way things go—in Columbia especially. I take satisfaction in what we all were able to accomplish … A discerning listener like you would probably be able to trace a throughline from the intellectual work I’ve done to the programmatic work. 

 

B&W: I keep thinking of John Dewey, Jane Addams, and William James’s attempt to unify theory and practice. 

 

CB: Yeah. Addams, a constant influence for Dewey; theory and practice for sure … For Addams, an idea that is powerfully expressed in her memoir, which I was just looking at, is that the intellectual culture of the time should not be the sole possession of a certain educated elite. I can even find the passages have been very inspiring to me. [He flips open Forty Years at Hull-House.

 

B&W: That book completely changed my life. 

 

CB: Yeah, I often find myself asking, "What would Jane do?" … Addams was many things, but she was an educator, and was thinking in innovative ways about education. Personally, I’ve been very interested in civic engagement initiatives at other colleges and universities and have been interested in places like Deep Springs College or the Gull Island Institute or Warren Wilson College in North Carolina or Berea College, where work and academic learning are joined … I think you got a taste of that.

 

B&W: I have some stupid questions. How do you spend a day off?

 

CB: Ay ay ay. I spend a fair amount of time taking advantage of the museum and cinephile cultures of New York. If I left New York, that would be what I most miss. I spend time with family and friends … I did have a period when I wrote poetry, but that impulse seems to have gotten into abeyance.

 

B&W: Oh. I’m sad to hear that. 

 

CB: Yeah. It might embarrass me to look at some of that. 

 

B&W: I’ve noticed that at the beginning of every lecture, you open a Diet Coke. 

 

CB: Laughs. Yeah, I feel the need to drink something, or that I want to have a beverage there. I’ve got so much going on that a caffeinated beverage seems appealing, right? It’s probably not very good for me. 

 

B&W: I’ve just noticed it seems like a ritual. 

 

CB: Yeah, maybe … There are probably better things to consume.

 

B&W: Kombucha? I don’t know. I think it’s nice. What are you going to miss most about working here? 

 

CB: A lot depends on how things proceed going forward. There is a strong possibility that I will continue teaching after retirement … It would give me the opportunity to stay in contact with young people and learn what you all are thinking and doing and so on. If I completely cut off contact from Columbia and embarked on another phase of my life, what I would most miss, without question, hands down, is the students. When people have asked me over the years, “What do you like most about working at Columbia?” I always say the students. I feel like I’ve been blessed to have known great undergraduates like yourself, and great graduate students. Many are interested in pursuing professional careers … But I think a lot of the students who end up in my orbit, for better or for worse, are intellectually curious in a somewhat different way. 

 

I certainly won’t miss meetings. I won’t miss the administration, right? So that will be fine to wash my hands of … Anything else? 

 

B&W: That’s all my questions. 

 

CB: I have a cat. Laughs.

 

B&W: Laughs. Anything you’d like to say? 

 

CB: No, but honestly, thank you. It’s very flattering to be invited to have this kind of a conversation … You and many of my other students, including my graduate students, have really made my life at Columbia better. And I don’t think students often realize how much that matters to faculty.

 

B&W: My operating assumption is that professors don’t notice I exist.

 

CB: I have a funny feeling, Sona, that more of your professors know you exist than you realize. 


B&W: Laughs. I don’t know. Okay.

Chewing on steak and getting spat out in your twenties.

By Josh Kazali

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Illustration by Iris Pope

Sophie Kemp is a writer from Brooklyn by way of Schenectady, New York. She also teaches in Columbia’s Creative Writing department, where I first met her as the intimidatingly cool professor of my fiction workshop. Kemp has reviewed albums for Pitchfork, written essays in The Paris Review, and in March of this year, she published her debut novel, Paradise Logic

 

Paradise Logic follows the misadventures of 23-year-old Reality Kahn, an actress in New Jersey waterslide commercials living in Gowanus who is on a quest to become the greatest girlfriend of all time. As she reads in the magazine Girlfriend Weekly: “This is a worthwhile cause. Young men all over the world are in need of your services.” Along the way, Reality is swept up by a crack-smoking NYU grad student of Assyrian history, the mysterious Dr. Zweig Altmann and his experimental drug ZZZZvx Ultra (XR), and a talking garden snake in sunglasses named Ungaro Ulaanbaatar. If all this sounds a bit chaotic: it is. But bound by Kemp’s inventive prose and sharp sense of humor, the story is tightly sprung and as moving as it is bewildering. Alexandra Tanner remarks for The New York Times, “Here, at last, is someone doing something new.”

As a professor, Kemp is perceptive and incisive, cutting to the heart of what makes a piece of writing work. As a novelist, these qualities remain true, but there’s also a wacky stylishness and a wicked humor which makes her writing a delight to read. After class a few weeks ago, I asked Kemp what she would do after her novel was published. She responded, “Die, probably.” Luckily, Kemp has stuck around to grace us with her wit and intelligence on books and music and young love. She also still has to grade my final. 


To borrow the phrase from Paradise Logic: “Read on, man.”

This interview has been edited and condensed for clarity.

 

 

The Blue & White: Something that’s been brought up in our workshop is how often this city is written about. Was it a challenge or a treat to be able to set your novel in New York?

 

Sophie Kemp: I don't even know if it really felt like a choice. Like, when I started writing it, I just had this small story for a novel and I knew I needed to write it, and it just was always sort of set in New York. I think it is kind of an interesting constraint just because people do it all the time and it’s so easy for it to be corny.

 

B&W: What sort of things did you find to work around that? I guess specifically with Brooklyn, because it’s so Brooklyn oriented.

 

SK: I was really trying not to write a Brooklyn novel. I wanted it to just be a book that happened to be set in Brooklyn. I wasn't writing about Brooklyn in a way where the point is, oh, it’s about Brooklyn, like the artifice of living in Brooklyn at the end of the 2010s. I feel like it’s very easy to just write, like, bad HBO’s Girls. I went to Oberlin, so that's always in the back of my head as something I really didn’t want to do.

 

B&W: And Gowanus is such a good name, I was thinking about that.

 

SK: There is something acoustically resonant about it for sure.

 

B&W: Yeah. Where did this begin for you? Like, where did Paradise Logic begin?

 

SK: For me, there’s this small story that I had been swimming around for a while. It is loosely based off of a real thing that happened to me, which is moving to New York in my early 20s and getting kind of caught up in a small DIY punk scene and being in a relationship for the first time. But that to me was never that interesting of a story to tell. For me, Paradise Logic came back when I figured out what it was about this thing that I felt a compulsion to write about.

 

B&W: What was it about the DIY punk scene that you connected with?

 

SK: I mean, it was just an environment that was super familiar to me. I think such a contained space is super interesting because it’s often full of young people trying to assert themselves artistically for the first time and doing a really bad job. I find it to be unbelievably funny.

 

B&W: I remember a few weeks ago you brought up the term “picaresque” in our workshop. After I read the book, I was like, oh, this makes a lot of sense. Did you always think of the novel as a quest narrative?

 

SK: I think it was something that got engineered slightly later, but the picaresque was one of the oldest comic forms and one of the oldest forms that novels have taken. I just find quest narratives to just be really funny. Like, when I was a child, my favorite movie was Monty Python and the Holy Grail. But then when I was older and taking literature more seriously, there was Don Quixote and Tristam Shandy. I just think that it’s really cool and you can do a lot with it.

 

B&W: Yeah. When I was reading it, I was thinking a lot about Lit Hum and these old narratives rather than contemporary literature. When you were writing, how wide were your influences?

 

SK: I mean, I don’t really read much contemporary fiction. I feel like when I was writing Paradise Logic, I was reading mostly 20th century and some 19th century fiction. I remember I read Pale Fire for the first time when I was writing, I was reading a lot of Nabokov. It was like the first time I had ever read Flaubert, I remember I read A Sentimental Education, which I felt very inspired by even though my book is nothing like that. I feel like it’s very important if you have aspirations to be a novelist to read all the time.

 

B&W: Especially for a novel like this, there must be inspirations that don't necessarily make it onto the page. What book do you think has the most askew influence?

 

SK: One book that I think was really important for this book was Kasuo Ishiguro’s The Remains of the Day. I don't know if you’ve ever read that before.

 

B&W: Yeah, I have.

 

SK: The Remains of the Day is about a guy who wants to be the greatest butler of all time. And I had been kind of struggling to be like, oh, how can I make this book that’s about nothing interesting? And I was like, oh, it’s going be like that. Like, it’s going to be about a girl who wants to be the greatest girlfriend of all the time.

 

B&W: I’ve always liked how much that book really gets into the butlering.

 

SK: People think that that book is, like, sad—which it is—but I also think it’s unbelievably funny. It’s one of my favorite books.

 

B&W: And being the greatest girlfriend of all time is such a perfect quest: Was that always the framing?

 

SK: That was pretty much on the page the whole time.

 

B&W: What would you hope any aspiring girlfriends take away from Reality’s journey?

 

SK: Hopefully that they should probably not try to be the greatest girlfriend of all time and just realize that they actually have a different skill that they should pursue.  

 

B&W: Yeah. I also wanted to ask about Ariel, who’s such a specifically terrible boyfriend. What were you thinking about in crafting the boyfriend who Reality would be linked with?

 

SK: I never wanted to write a book where the point is, oh, this man has really wronged her and she’s fucked up because he’s fucked up. So I wanted him to be a slightly generic shitty Brooklyn guy that she has too much of an attachment to. She has a lot of autonomy over what's happening to her, which I think was pretty important to me.

 

B&W: Yeah, that’s true. I feel like some of the most gutting parts are where Ariel is more careless than intentionally harming Reality. I mean, the feeling that someone just doesn’t care as much as you, I think can be the most painful.

 

SK: I just think that's an experience that many people who go through in their first relationships. It’s just like you bet on the wrong horse and you love someone and they don’t love you back.

 

B&W: There’s also a lot of sex in the novel, and I wanted to ask, how do you approach writing about sex?

 

SK: There is a lot of sex in this novel and some of it was a bit reactionary of me, where I feel like people are afraid to do it. I think it’s important to write about, and there’s a lot of comic potential, because it’s something that everyone does and it has the capacity to be so gross and scary. So, I chose to write about it for maybe a slightly political reason. But also, this woman wants to be the greatest girlfriend of all time. If you are the greatest girlfriend of all time, a lot of your job is just making sure that you’re always available to have sex with this random guy that kind of hates you.

 

B&W: Do you think more people should be writing about sex?

 

SK: Definitely, yeah. I think something that really pisses me off about contemporary fiction is that a lot of it is just toothless Netflix drivel to me. The whole point of fiction is that it can do things that film and TV can never do. It has the capacity to be as extreme as you want it because you never have to worry about staging it. So why not use the medium to its fullest potential?

 

B&W: It’s funny, because I also hear about how sexless films are now.

 

SK: It's troubling to me, can't put my finger on why.

 

B&W: You've also talked about the importance of Reality having an artistic practice. When did you start thinking about your own writing more seriously? When did it feel real?

 

SK: I always wanted to be a writer and when I graduated college, I thought that I wanted to be a magazine writer and I essentially did that for a couple of years. I really quickly despised it. Then I got laid off from my last magazine job, which was as a blogger at VICE. I really hated that job so much. I was kind of relieved to be laid off from it. After I got laid off, I just was like, fuck it, I’m just going to write fiction. And that very quickly started to feel like for the first time in my life, I knew what I was supposed to be writing about.

 

B&W: Was that before you did your MFA here?

 

SK: I started writing fiction in October of 2020 and then applied to grad school like six weeks later. I was like: I’m going to be unemployed. Like I need to get health insurance. So that’s why I went to graduate school. Not something I would recommend.

  

B&W: You also write album reviews for Pitchfork, where you mentioned you interned. I was wondering how your approach to nonfiction writing differs or relates to your fiction writing?

 

SK: I started writing professionally for magazines when I was still kind of a teenager, so it definitely informed my fiction. But I actually feel once I started writing fiction pretty seriously, my fiction started informing my nonfiction.

 

B&W: In what way?

 

SK: I just felt like I suddenly understood a lot more about how writing works, because I finally felt confident in myself for the first time. I think I started to have more trust in my own opinions, because I was able to finally feel like my writing was good for the first time.

 

B&W: I’m glad that you feel it!

 

SK: Yeah, me too.

 

B&W: Do you get to pick the [Pitchfork] number?

 

SK: Can’t say.

 

B&W: Aw. Fair enough.

 

SK: I’ll get in trouble.

 

B&W: Do you listen to music when you write?

 

SK: Yeah, all the time.

 

B&W: What sort of music?

 

SK: I don’t know, everything. Like, when I was writing this book, I was listening to Mahler and the 2001: A Space Odyssey soundtrack and pre-cancellation Kanye West and early-2000s Eminem and Joanna Newsom and Neu! and, like, every album that I’ve ever cared about.

 

B&W: Wow. I guess that does sort of make sense for the sonic texture of the novel. What music do you most of the time prefer?

 

SK: What am I listening to right now? I don’t know, I really feel like working for Pitchfork kind of ruined my relationship with music. When I was in college, I ran the radio station and was someone who was listening to every new record and every old record and was friends with a ton of DJs and people with bands. Then I kind of got spat back out in the second half of my 20s and now all I really want to do is listen to Summer Teeth by Wilco.

 

B&W: I also wanted to talk about your teaching approach, because I’m more familiar with you as a teacher than as a writer. Do you think teaching makes you a different writer?

 

SK: Yeah, I think it does in a good way. I think teaching has made me a really good editor. I’ve gotten really good at quickly figuring out the thing that's preventing a story from fully singing, and I think it's made me a lot more capable of doing that in my own writing.

 

B&W: You also did your MFA here—has that relationship with the department changed? Like, is it weird to be with old professors?

 

SK: Yeah, it mostly just makes me feel like I'm a super senior, to be honest. Like, I don’t take classes here anymore but I'm just around all the time. I’ll see Sam Lipsyte and he’ll be like, you’re still here? And I’m like, yeah, but I teach now, I’m on the writing faculty.

 

B&W: And has there been a change in your approach to teaching since you first started? What’s the biggest thing you've learned about teaching writing?

 

SK: I had never taught really anything before other than being a summer camp counselor. I was a gardening counselor, and I would do classes where I told wealthy 11-year-olds from Westchester how to walk a goat. So I really had no idea what the fuck I was doing my first semester, and was just amazed I could get the plane in the air at all. I feel like the way my approach to teaching has changed is that I understand how to teach now.

 

B&W: I was going to ask, because I think you were teaching on the day the book was published—

 

SK: The day before.

 

B&W: The day before. What did you do on the day it was published?

 

SK: I had to do a full day of book signings. Then my editor took me out for a steak and then my boyfriend took me out for Martini.

 

B&W: I think I had a steak after I finished my thesis.

 

SK: It was my third steak of the week. I guess when you write a book, people just want to give you a steak.

 

B&W: One of our first assignments in workshop was to bring in a favorite paragraph. What do you think makes for a really great paragraph? 

 

SK: That it’s really singing in a way. That all of the sentences are really in conversation with each other and are doing something that’s loud and buoyant and kinetic, I think. 

 

B&W: And on the topic of good writing, what have you been reading lately?

 

SK: Right now I’m reading a collection of plays by this woman Sarah Kane, who is a playwright in the 90s who wrote five plays when she was in her mid-20s and killed herself. They’re really, really upsetting and I’m really loving it. It’s one of the most transgressive works of writing I’ve ever read. What else have I read this semester? Can I look at my computer? I always write down every book I read, because I think it’s nice to feel like a failure. Oh, I read Bend Sinister by Nabokov, which was great. 

 

B&W: Finally, as someone who’s imminently going to be 23 in Brooklyn: any advice?

 

SK: Watch out! I think it’s gonna be great. I loved being 23 in Brooklyn. It was one of the most difficult and one of the most beautiful years of my life.

Sophie Kemp

Dear Students

A very accurate archive of administrative correspondences.

By Ava Lozner

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Monday, March 10      8:49 a.m.     cunocturnaltwister@columbia.edu

Starting a New Chapter, Together

Dear Students,

 

It is with the utmost pride and humility that I introduce myself to you as the new faculty advisor to the Columbia University Nocturnal Twister League (CUNT League). My name is Uncontroversial Woman, or Mrs. Woman if you care for formalities. As some of you may know, I have been faculty advisor to the Columbia University Monopoly League (CUM League) for several years, and have enjoyed hosting the Twister League for occasional joint game nights (CUM-CUNT Play Night)!

 

For 85 years as a part of the CU Nocturnal Twister League, Columbia University’s most flexible souls have met under cover of night to participate in some of the most intellectually and physically challenging games of Twister any of us have ever experienced. I’ll never forget my first ever CUNT game (that’s right, I am a CUNT alum myself). It was a real hoot. People twisting left and right, laughter, the occasional fist fight—you could really tell that Columbians enjoy the intellectual sprawl of Twister. 

 

As a small little American Girl from a small little American town, all I ever dreamed of was coming to school in the city that never sleeps; if no one was in bed, I thought, they would surely join in on Twister! And that’s just what happened. I met my best friends in CUNT League. You could even say I met myself during those late-night Twist-offs. 

 

Anywho, although it is my honor to take over the role of faculty advisor to the CUNT League, I would be remiss not to recognize that this comes at quite a tumultuous time for this university. Recent accusations have brought to light some disturbing happenings at recent gatherings of CUNT. We have all seen the disturbing video circulating of an unsanctioned event dubbed “Freaky Twister,” where members of our club could be seen participating in group sex using Columbia University property—this property included our own Twister mats and spinners, and most disturbingly, the board game pieces from CU Monopoly’s official playing set. 

 

In light of this controversy, I figured I would send you all a lengthy email about my personal life in an attempt to distract the public from this massive PR nightmare.

 

Moving forward together,

Uncontroversial Woman

CUNT League Faculty Advisor

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Wednesday, March 12      12:32 p.m.     cunocturnaltwister@columbia.edu

Concerning Recent Controversies

Students,

 

When I took this challenging role, I knew we had some challenges ahead of us. Not only were these challenges concerning, they were also challenging. 

 

I have been made aware of this most recent challenge, and I agree it is incredibly concerning. I am working every day to serve CUNT as best I can.

 

To be clear, the accusations leveled against me are baseless, dangerous, challenging, slightly titillating, and, most of all, untrue. I know all too well the repercussions of mishandling our university’s board gaming materials, and am appalled that my character would be called into question with such outlandish accusations.

 

I just want to reiterate: I did not have sexual relations on that Twister mat.

 

Hurt :(,

Uncontroversial Woman

CUNT League Faculty Advisor, currently on paid leave

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Friday, March 14      4:27 p.m.     cunocturnaltwister@columbia.edu

Pobody’s Nerfect.

All,

 

There is only one thing to say: I’m sorry. I made promises when I entered CUNT. I had a vision. I had hope. 

 

In light of a recent video of myself splayed out on our official Twister mat, slowly inserting an alarming number of Monopoly pieces into my rectal cavity (followed by the Twister spinner [then ten fingers {then the mat itself}] ), it has become clear that I have spread myself too thin.

 

Serving CUNT for the past week and a half has been the honor of my life. I have made so many indispensable memories at our late-night Twisting sessions, and to think my time as faculty advisor will be tainted by an unfortunate mistake brings me great pain. However, I know when it is best to step down and let a hole be filled by someone who is fit for the job.

 

Columbia University has scheduled my public execution for tomorrow at noon on the sundial, directly after my rectal foreign body removal procedure to retrieve CUM’s monopoly pieces and CUNT’s Twister spinner from the dark recesses of my anus.

 

I find comfort in knowing that after I am gone, you students will lead the next generation to greatness. You will continue to surprise yourself with your unending wisdom and courage, just as I surprised myself with the sheer amount of university property I was able to fit up my butthole. 

 

With pride, sadness, and serious digestive issues,

Uncontroversial Woman

Former CUNT League Faculty Advisor

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